Well there it is, my new scar line.
It's pretty big and badass looking, it goes all the way up into my hair line which you can see to the far left of it all.
My skin heals incredibly fast as you can't even see the remnants of my scar from my AP spine fusion from February 2006 any more.
It's not visible at all on my back, so I know that this scar line will heal up just as nicely as that one did.
I have one minor complaint, but as I've been reminded, I'm alive, that's more important.
The details of the fusion now go like this; I am permanently fused from C1-S1, that is the full length of the spine, there is no space at all, top to bottom, what the fuck else can go wrong with my spine?
Not fucking much I would think.
I'm like the terminator in there now, all fucking titanium but absolutely no power.
Weak, human, powerless to do anything about anything.
While I have my small moments of self pity, tears, feeling all shitty for myself, I was reminded that I'm a mother and that I'm alive, I'm here and I need to stop feeling all shitty for myself.
Indeed.
Mother is the word for god in the hearts and on the lips of children.
I need to remember to do my crying in private, it's still all too much for them to handle.
Wishing you rapid healing and saluting your spirit. You go, girl!
If I ever win megabucks or powerball I'm getting you that zipper tat you want. you are one tough chick.
love ya
It's good to see you back and posting; I can't imagine anyone not having at least a few complaints...don't be so hard on yourself! Love you!
MOM that is a very powerful title to possess. You are the best....You have a fighting spirit that few people possess....I am proud of you and the woman that you have become. Keep that spirit going you can do any thing that you set your mind to. Hug the boys....Be good to yourself and I am so happy that you are doing well. Give yourself time and be patient with yourself you have had a lot of things happen but you are doing great. LOVE YOU
I am a sap and a half, but your mom's words made me a bit misty, I must admit.
Kat, you are one of the strongest people I kind of know. You've been through it before and know for the most part what's in store down the road. Hang in there, take it easy and even though I'm hundreds of miles away, I'm here for you any way I can be.