I can't shake this, I simply cannot get myself out of this feeling of just blah and sadness, and worthlessness.
I know I'm not worthless, I know that, but I feel that way. I can't even cook a decent meal without being in absolute agony the whole time, and having to ask one of the teens to come help me get stuff out of the cupboards because I can't look up to even see what I'm trying to reach for.
It's just ugh.
I think the economy stuff has me bummed out too, not that I have an actual job outside of the home to lose due to mass layoffs, but it still has me all bummed out.
It's affecting lots of other people too.
The girls on the local forums are all worried about their jobs, wondering if they should invest in some type of franchises for women or something, try and find some sort of job that they can do on the side, build it up a bit, and hope that it can sustain them should they lose their jobs.
So they're asking what other women would buy even in a bad economy and we're all like the basics, the needed things, no splurging so don't go selling jewelry and stuff like that.
I got my order from Misikko today, and I loved it, i want to get in the shower and use the new clarifying shampoo and conditioners, use the new awesome blow dryer, but meh, I really just want to lay on the couch and watch stupid crap on tv.
I just want this funk to go away but I don't know how to make it go away.
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I know I'm not worthless, I know that, but I feel that way. I can't even cook a decent meal without being in absolute agony the whole time, and having to ask one of the teens to come help me get stuff out of the cupboards because I can't look up to even see what I'm trying to reach for.
It's just ugh.
I think the economy stuff has me bummed out too, not that I have an actual job outside of the home to lose due to mass layoffs, but it still has me all bummed out.
It's affecting lots of other people too.
The girls on the local forums are all worried about their jobs, wondering if they should invest in some type of franchises for women or something, try and find some sort of job that they can do on the side, build it up a bit, and hope that it can sustain them should they lose their jobs.
So they're asking what other women would buy even in a bad economy and we're all like the basics, the needed things, no splurging so don't go selling jewelry and stuff like that.
I got my order from Misikko today, and I loved it, i want to get in the shower and use the new clarifying shampoo and conditioners, use the new awesome blow dryer, but meh, I really just want to lay on the couch and watch stupid crap on tv.
I just want this funk to go away but I don't know how to make it go away.
I wish I could help.
Is the pain always going to be there? When will it let up?
There's nothing worse than being controlled by your body. Your mind is fighting your body. I'm sending you a virtual hug. I know I can't help, I know it won't - but I'm thinking about you... sending you positive thoughts.
There are also some great mental health vitamins - like St. John's Wart, Stress B Complex and others... maybe seeing a specialized nutritionist may help.
Do you think it could be the lack of light too? You know - like seasonal affective disorder?