Said I'm stressed out..so tired, my days..so long, gotta..move on.

The last 15 hours have been rather stressful for me, drama, drama, drama.
Here I am trying to get my life in order, get organized, and I've got the stress coming out my ears.
I need a serious vacation.
I swear, one of these years I'm just gonna pack up my stuff, just my stuff, and I'm going to take off for a week, some isolated place all by myself.
Go rent myself a cabin in someplace nice like maybe one of those Outer Banks rentals that people are always talking about.
I'd wanna go in like the mid-fall though, when most of the tourists have gone home yet the weather is still a bit warm.
That way I could take long walks on the beach by myself with no shoes, dip my feet in the water, do some sight-seeing by myself, eat, sleep, be completely alone for just one whole week someplace beautiful.

I have so much faith in people, faith in them to do the right thing, to tell the truth, and it upsets me so much when they don't.
I know, I'm holding people up to standards they can't possibly live by, everybody is always looking out for themselves, trying to be bigger, trying to be in the center of it all, and so they do things, they say things, that are not truthful and hurt other people.

I am part of it, I'm not going to lie about that, I've become a trusted person who gets spoken to about a lot of things, so that puts me in the middle of it all.
And I don't mind it, not at all, I try to be helpful and listen, and come up with ideas, and help implement others, so this makes me privy to information that other people don't know.
And because of that, I'm a trusted person, it's not my place to share anything that is said to me with anyone else, but when I'm left with no choice because of other people's lies, what am I supposed to do about that?
I'm left with no choice but to say what was shared in confidence with other people to try and clear up the mess and drama that someone else started, and frankly, that's not fair.
But what was said really hurt someone, and I can't just stand by and allow a friend to be hurt when I know the truth.
I know how difficult it was, I know that other ideas were bounced around for several days before doing the only possible option, but still, it wasn't my place to say any of it but I had to.
Oh and the lies that just kept coming, and I ask myself why people lie, and I keep coming back to wanting to be the center of it all and self esteem issues, and so I looked it up, and so yeah, that link is pretty interesting, you should read it.
 
"We're trying not so much to impress other people but to maintain a view of ourselves that is consistent with the way they would like us to be," Feldman said. We want to be agreeable, to make the social situation smoother or easier, and to avoid insulting others through disagreement or discord."

I think some people do lie to create disagreement and discord though, to hurt others, to start some drama, and that is what happened that caused me so much stress and left me having to try and explain.
I am greatly upset that lies were told that hurt someone that I consider a friend, and it's causing me a great deal of stress.
 
Here it is almost morning again, and I have yet to even try to sleep, all I can do is think about how badly a friend is hurting, that it should have never happened, and that no matter what I say, it won't be believed because there is a a he said/she said thing happening and a lot of hurt feelings.
But I know the truth, and the truth is that it was a lie said and it hurt someone.

I am so so tired, but I can't sleep because of all of this, it's not right.