Another long, long night/day with no sleep again, and now I have a headache.
The headache is not due to not sleeping, it's due to stress.
Stress over how Sebastian is doing at school today, I'll find out in like 10 minutes, stress over washing all of Mark's bed sheets/blankets, and his back, I need to call the doctor about that tomorrow.
Mark is having a ton of back pain lately, and I feel terrible about it.
All of the spine issues that I have, are all genetic, they can all be handed down, passed on to children, and I'm so afraid that Mark got one of the things, or what if he got all of them?
Something is seriously wrong with his back, he's in pain almost every single day for hours at a time, and I'm so afraid that I passed onto him one of my spine deformities/issues.
I don't want either of them to have to go through even a quarter of what I've been through with my back all of these years.
I feel helpless, I can't help him until I know exactly what is wrong, but what if it's something super serious and they think surgery will fix it?
And what if surgery doesn't fix it?
I'm really afraid that he ended up with one of the bad issues, one of the painful for life issues.
About age 18 is when I started feeling the pain in my back all of the time, that's when I started taking Tylenol like I owned stock in the company, seeing chiropractors, sleeping on heating pads, and having all kinds of back massagers and stuff, all of those things that I tried to relieve the pain, and none of it worked, nothing worked for years, and I ended up so bad that I had to have surgery, and then another, and here I am, still in pain.
Please don't let him have any of my issues, please don't let anything have been passed onto him.
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The headache is not due to not sleeping, it's due to stress.
Stress over how Sebastian is doing at school today, I'll find out in like 10 minutes, stress over washing all of Mark's bed sheets/blankets, and his back, I need to call the doctor about that tomorrow.
Mark is having a ton of back pain lately, and I feel terrible about it.
All of the spine issues that I have, are all genetic, they can all be handed down, passed on to children, and I'm so afraid that Mark got one of the things, or what if he got all of them?
Something is seriously wrong with his back, he's in pain almost every single day for hours at a time, and I'm so afraid that I passed onto him one of my spine deformities/issues.
I don't want either of them to have to go through even a quarter of what I've been through with my back all of these years.
I feel helpless, I can't help him until I know exactly what is wrong, but what if it's something super serious and they think surgery will fix it?
And what if surgery doesn't fix it?
I'm really afraid that he ended up with one of the bad issues, one of the painful for life issues.
About age 18 is when I started feeling the pain in my back all of the time, that's when I started taking Tylenol like I owned stock in the company, seeing chiropractors, sleeping on heating pads, and having all kinds of back massagers and stuff, all of those things that I tried to relieve the pain, and none of it worked, nothing worked for years, and I ended up so bad that I had to have surgery, and then another, and here I am, still in pain.
Please don't let him have any of my issues, please don't let anything have been passed onto him.
I'll definitely be keeping Mark in my thoughts! I hope it's nothing that isn't an easy fix. My 16 y.o. already has a host of back problems, and I think he needs to be seen by a specialist ASAP. He plays football, so it's hard for me to tell what might be muscular and what might be abnormal, but why take any chances?
The good thing is catching it as early as possible. Knew about your spine issues, and glad your 'getting it out' about what your son's going through, as well as you with it.