No Power.

Today has been a much better day for me, I got the chance to talk to someone about how I was feeling, about how I let things people say affect me to the point where I end up not just feeling upset, but physically ill over it.
The person was able to understand what I was talking about and help me by just listening to what I had to say, how I was feeling, and offered me some advice on how to handle it all.

Then when I was reading this month's "O" magazine, on the last page it's always Oprah's own words in a column she calls "What I know for sure", and she wrote the following;

"Often we don't even realize who we're meant to be because we're so busy trying to live out someone else's ideas. But other people and their opinions hold no power in defining our destiny."

I read it a couple of times and then put the magazine on the table and went about the rest of my day and the things that I needed to do around the house.
As the day progressed, I started to get feeling sad again, and I remembered only part of that quote, so I went and picked the magazine back up and read it again a couple more times.
It's finally starting to sink in and mean something to me for my current feelings.
I have to stop letting other people's opinions and ideas of me, affect me so much.
Easier said than done for me most of the time because I have really become an emotional person these last few months, but it's definitely something that I can work on and think about when stuff starts getting to me.
I know that it will take time, I need time to adjust to new ways of thinking and doing things, and when things start to get to me, I need to walk away from whatever is causing the bad feelings to come up, and stay away from it until I can calmly handle the situation, or just ignore what is being said altogether, and only dealing with what absolutely needs to be dealt with.

I'll get there, I'll get to the point where I can ignore the negative personal stuff from other people, and just deal with what has to be dealt with.