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This
same time last year, I weighed 196lbs.
I now weigh 154, a 42lb loss in 1
year, and I've kept it off and am still losing.
I lost another 4lbs since
last Friday night at my weekly weigh-in.
As I posted on my other blog, I'm looking at ways to get rid of my belly pudge, so I'm doing a lot of reading on the internet about all of the different methods to try and help me get rid of it.
I've been reading about fat burners, different exercises, and all kinds of different medicines that may help me lose my belly pudge like phentermine.
It works to suppress the appetite just like the name brand prescription one does.
I don't really need something to suppress my appetite, I'm already doing very well losing weight, I've lost 38 pounds over the course of a year, down from 196 pounds, and I've managed to keep it off for a whole year.
Soo yeah, I really don't need an appetite suppressant, I need a way to decrease my belly pudge.
And believe me, it is pudge.
It's like a little bit of fat mixed in with flabby, hanging skin because I've lost a lot of weight.
If I could exercise, do sit-ups or crunches, I would probably be able to reduce it, tighten and tone it, but I can't because of the rods, I can't bend at the waist.
I just really need to find a way to get rid of the pudge without having to exercise which I can't.
I've been reading about fat burners, different exercises, and all kinds of different medicines that may help me lose my belly pudge like phentermine.
It works to suppress the appetite just like the name brand prescription one does.
I don't really need something to suppress my appetite, I'm already doing very well losing weight, I've lost 38 pounds over the course of a year, down from 196 pounds, and I've managed to keep it off for a whole year.
Soo yeah, I really don't need an appetite suppressant, I need a way to decrease my belly pudge.
And believe me, it is pudge.
It's like a little bit of fat mixed in with flabby, hanging skin because I've lost a lot of weight.
If I could exercise, do sit-ups or crunches, I would probably be able to reduce it, tighten and tone it, but I can't because of the rods, I can't bend at the waist.
I just really need to find a way to get rid of the pudge without having to exercise which I can't.
Have you ever read any of the alli reviews?
I have read some, but they are kind of confusing to me, I can't figure out if it works like some other diet aids that let you eat what you want, but it pushes the fat out, like it doesn't let your body digest the fat.
You ever hear about those?
The ones that don't let your body digest the fat in the foods that you eat?
The fat doesn't get digested, it comes out, and sometimes it "leaks" out.
Yes, the thought of "leakage" makes me kind of wary of those kinds of products, so I am not sure after reading some reviews if All is like that or not.
I have read some, but they are kind of confusing to me, I can't figure out if it works like some other diet aids that let you eat what you want, but it pushes the fat out, like it doesn't let your body digest the fat.
You ever hear about those?
The ones that don't let your body digest the fat in the foods that you eat?
The fat doesn't get digested, it comes out, and sometimes it "leaks" out.
Yes, the thought of "leakage" makes me kind of wary of those kinds of products, so I am not sure after reading some reviews if All is like that or not.
You know what sucks wicked bad for me?
I have all of this wicked awesome fitness equipment in my house, and I can't use any of it.
I can't use any of it because of my back surgeries, because A) I can barely move to use it, and B) my doctors don't want me using it because it could do all kinds of damage to my spine and all of the equipment inside of my body.
Using my elliptical and weights, lifting weights, could actually cause me to damage some of my implants and fixtures, I could make them rip off of my spine if I do something too much or too hard, and then I'd have to have all kinds of surgeries again.
That would really suck, but it still sucks because I'm so out of shape, I'd love to get in shape, turn all of this fat into muscle, not be so damn flabby.
I've lost a wicked lot of weight, I was at 200 pounds, and I am now down to just 155 pounds after almost a year.
It will be a full year come July 5th. I was 197 pounds, and I now weigh just 155, so I've lost 42 pounds, but I'm all flabby in the gut, I would love to be able to do sit ups and get all of that flab turned into muscle.
That would be awesome, but I can't.
I have all of this wicked awesome fitness equipment in my house, and I can't use any of it.
I can't use any of it because of my back surgeries, because A) I can barely move to use it, and B) my doctors don't want me using it because it could do all kinds of damage to my spine and all of the equipment inside of my body.
Using my elliptical and weights, lifting weights, could actually cause me to damage some of my implants and fixtures, I could make them rip off of my spine if I do something too much or too hard, and then I'd have to have all kinds of surgeries again.
That would really suck, but it still sucks because I'm so out of shape, I'd love to get in shape, turn all of this fat into muscle, not be so damn flabby.
I've lost a wicked lot of weight, I was at 200 pounds, and I am now down to just 155 pounds after almost a year.
It will be a full year come July 5th. I was 197 pounds, and I now weigh just 155, so I've lost 42 pounds, but I'm all flabby in the gut, I would love to be able to do sit ups and get all of that flab turned into muscle.
That would be awesome, but I can't.
Please forgive my blogging absence since like last Tuesday I think?
Yeah, Tuesday.
Anyway, I've been battling an illness again, and this past weekend was pure hell for me and the teens.
I had a ton of stuff going on, I caught some sort of stomach thing that Mark had caught but in me, it mutated into the stomach thing spawned from the very bowels of hell, and it was also the "end of the month" pain medicine wise, so I was short a few days just like every month which resulted in my stomach being even sicker than the stomach thing that I was dealing with.
But I got the pain medicine taken care of by my doctor, but the stomach thing stayed and got worse, and worse, and worse as each day passed.
I was so sick that I was completely unable to eat or even drink anything at all for about 3 days, and if I tried to take even super small sips of water to wash down my pain meds and now some seriously strong antibiotics and phenergan that the ER gave me on Saturday to try and stop me from vomiting, I ended up even more violently ill than I was within just minutes of taking them.
All the vomiting and diars I was dealing with is not exactly the best weight loss supplement, but I did drop 9 pounds from Wednesday through to today.
Hey, weight loss is weight loss for this fat chick, it all counts to me no matter how I lose it.
But I was so ill that the teens got really scared for me and made me go to the hospital again on Sunday, and that was the absolute worst day of my weekend.
I only have brief recollections of actually getting to the hospital on Sunday, I know that my friend Mindy took me, that Sebastian called her, and I recall being put in a wheelchair, and then the next thing I remember is waking up on a hospital bed in the ER with an IV in my right arm and 2 doctors standing over me and talking about my high white cell count and a massive infection that they couldn't locate just yet.
While I was out, they drew blood and ran tests, ran a cath line and took urine samples, and they were talking about the possibility of cancer.
Again.
I have an unnaturally high white cell count, it's always been high, but it's been extremely high since my first spine fusion in 2006, but apparently it was really super high this time, and so they threw around words like cancer, again.
I've already been down this road, I've already had tons of cancer tests, but here they were, talking about it and I admit to getting, and still being, really, really scared.
I was in the ER on Sunday from about 3pm until almost 10pm, they pumped in bags and bags of fluids because I was so dehydrated, they gave me about 6 doses of Zofran because it was obvious that the phenergan hadn't helped me at all, and about 6 doses of dilaudid for all of the stomach cramping and pain that I was in, but I continued to be violently ill, so violently ill that they had to bring in a portable toilet for my room.
I know, TMI, and it was embarrassing and humiliating, and I hated every damn second of it, but being hooked up to an IV and getting sick so rapidly, I wouldn't have been able to make it to a bathroom if I tried.
Puking and the diars at the same time, ugh, and the nurses kept coming in to check on me and clean me up, and there was some sort of brownish liquid in my vomit that concerned the nurses, so they went and got the doctors again, and they kept calling the lab to make them hurry up with the blood test results so they could try to figure out what I had so that they could treat me properly.
By the time they released me, they still didn't have the lab results back yet, so they said they would fax them to my doctors ASAP, and then they sent me home with some more antibiotics and a script for Reglan which is another anti-nausea medication and it also "speeds up the the rate at which the stomach empties into the intestines."
They gave me that in the hopes that whatever this thing, infection, whatever the hell it is that is in my gastrointestinal tract, will get the heck out.
Yeah, Tuesday.
Anyway, I've been battling an illness again, and this past weekend was pure hell for me and the teens.
I had a ton of stuff going on, I caught some sort of stomach thing that Mark had caught but in me, it mutated into the stomach thing spawned from the very bowels of hell, and it was also the "end of the month" pain medicine wise, so I was short a few days just like every month which resulted in my stomach being even sicker than the stomach thing that I was dealing with.
But I got the pain medicine taken care of by my doctor, but the stomach thing stayed and got worse, and worse, and worse as each day passed.
I was so sick that I was completely unable to eat or even drink anything at all for about 3 days, and if I tried to take even super small sips of water to wash down my pain meds and now some seriously strong antibiotics and phenergan that the ER gave me on Saturday to try and stop me from vomiting, I ended up even more violently ill than I was within just minutes of taking them.
All the vomiting and diars I was dealing with is not exactly the best weight loss supplement, but I did drop 9 pounds from Wednesday through to today.
Hey, weight loss is weight loss for this fat chick, it all counts to me no matter how I lose it.
But I was so ill that the teens got really scared for me and made me go to the hospital again on Sunday, and that was the absolute worst day of my weekend.
I only have brief recollections of actually getting to the hospital on Sunday, I know that my friend Mindy took me, that Sebastian called her, and I recall being put in a wheelchair, and then the next thing I remember is waking up on a hospital bed in the ER with an IV in my right arm and 2 doctors standing over me and talking about my high white cell count and a massive infection that they couldn't locate just yet.
While I was out, they drew blood and ran tests, ran a cath line and took urine samples, and they were talking about the possibility of cancer.
Again.
I have an unnaturally high white cell count, it's always been high, but it's been extremely high since my first spine fusion in 2006, but apparently it was really super high this time, and so they threw around words like cancer, again.
I've already been down this road, I've already had tons of cancer tests, but here they were, talking about it and I admit to getting, and still being, really, really scared.
I was in the ER on Sunday from about 3pm until almost 10pm, they pumped in bags and bags of fluids because I was so dehydrated, they gave me about 6 doses of Zofran because it was obvious that the phenergan hadn't helped me at all, and about 6 doses of dilaudid for all of the stomach cramping and pain that I was in, but I continued to be violently ill, so violently ill that they had to bring in a portable toilet for my room.
I know, TMI, and it was embarrassing and humiliating, and I hated every damn second of it, but being hooked up to an IV and getting sick so rapidly, I wouldn't have been able to make it to a bathroom if I tried.
Puking and the diars at the same time, ugh, and the nurses kept coming in to check on me and clean me up, and there was some sort of brownish liquid in my vomit that concerned the nurses, so they went and got the doctors again, and they kept calling the lab to make them hurry up with the blood test results so they could try to figure out what I had so that they could treat me properly.
By the time they released me, they still didn't have the lab results back yet, so they said they would fax them to my doctors ASAP, and then they sent me home with some more antibiotics and a script for Reglan which is another anti-nausea medication and it also "speeds up the the rate at which the stomach empties into the intestines."
They gave me that in the hopes that whatever this thing, infection, whatever the hell it is that is in my gastrointestinal tract, will get the heck out.
Continue reading One hell of a time. .
I can no longer lift things like I used to, or do things like I used to, heck, just moving a dining chair from one place to another killed my upper back and shoulders today.
So I've begun looking at ways to increase my strength and how to increase muscle mass in my upper back, shoulders, and arms, so that I don't have to feel so weak and helpless anymore.
It really totally sucks having to ask one of the teens to come put a 12 pack of soda in the fridge for me because I simply can't lift it anymore.
Yes, I'm that weak in my upper body, a simple 12 pack of soda is too much for me to lift up off of the floor and place on the top shelf of the fridge.
What I would like to do is get some small hand weights, a small set of them, starting at like 1 pound and working up to a hand weight/dumbbell of 15-20lbs, and start working out slowly, lift everyday for just 20-30 minutes per day, or even less than that if my arms can't take that long to start, and just keep going every day until I've built up strength again.
I know that medically, I'm not supposed to, but I'm really sick and tired of being weak and feeling useless.
I used to be so strong.
So I've begun looking at ways to increase my strength and how to increase muscle mass in my upper back, shoulders, and arms, so that I don't have to feel so weak and helpless anymore.
It really totally sucks having to ask one of the teens to come put a 12 pack of soda in the fridge for me because I simply can't lift it anymore.
Yes, I'm that weak in my upper body, a simple 12 pack of soda is too much for me to lift up off of the floor and place on the top shelf of the fridge.
What I would like to do is get some small hand weights, a small set of them, starting at like 1 pound and working up to a hand weight/dumbbell of 15-20lbs, and start working out slowly, lift everyday for just 20-30 minutes per day, or even less than that if my arms can't take that long to start, and just keep going every day until I've built up strength again.
I know that medically, I'm not supposed to, but I'm really sick and tired of being weak and feeling useless.
I used to be so strong.
but even though it's Mother's Day, I have things that need to get done.
I've already started the laundry, I need to do the dishes, 2 sinks full, and then vac the rug.
This house is a mess and it needs to be taken care of.
The teens do and have helped me, but I like things done a certain way, so the best way, is always to just do it myself.
I'll tell you though, one of the best ways to quick weight loss is stress.
Stress not only causes loss of appetite, but the weight just drops off like crazy fast.
I swear, in the last week and a half, I must have lost at least 10-15lbs.
I like losing weight, but I also know that this isn't exactly the best way to do it.
I've already started the laundry, I need to do the dishes, 2 sinks full, and then vac the rug.
This house is a mess and it needs to be taken care of.
The teens do and have helped me, but I like things done a certain way, so the best way, is always to just do it myself.
I'll tell you though, one of the best ways to quick weight loss is stress.
Stress not only causes loss of appetite, but the weight just drops off like crazy fast.
I swear, in the last week and a half, I must have lost at least 10-15lbs.
I like losing weight, but I also know that this isn't exactly the best way to do it.
I will get some term life insurance one of these days, I feel like I'm running out of time here.
Lately, it's been one thing after another with me, it all feels like it's falling apart, fast.
I turn 40 on March 1st, and my body is breaking down faster and faster as each day passes, or at least that's how I feel, that's what it feels like what's happening to me.
Intestinal viruses, drastic weight loss, illness after illness, medication changes, and then at 4am today, this Thursday morning, my way back right molar, which has been broken for a long time, freaking exploded like I got shot in the face.
I couldn't sleep, as usual, and all of a sudden, it felt like I had literally been shot in the face.
The entire right side of my face immediately swelled up huge, my gums are completely swollen, my whole face hurts, the swelling is moving up the whole side of my face, my right eye is swelling shut, it's really pretty bad.
The antibiotics that I have are not working on it, not yet at least, I need to go see a dentist, but there is absolutely no dental coverage on Medicare, none.
I simply do not have the money to go see a dentist, I won't have the money to see a dentist for a very long time, and even if I did have the money, I cannot open my jaw wide anymore, an extraction of that broken tooth would have to be done while I was put under, and they would have to be extremely careful or they could break my jaw.
Being put under for extractions cost a ton of money that I just do not have, will not have.
But first, before anything like an extraction could even be discussed, I need the correct antibiotics to get rid of this massive infection that is taking place and spreading.
If this abscesses, it can get into my blood stream and make me even sicker than I already am all of the time.
I'm so tired people, so so tired.
I'm tired of being sick, I'm tired of having things go wrong, I'm exhausted from struggling to make ends meet, I'm stressed out all of the time, it's really no wonder that I don't sleep and can barely eat, I'm far too stressed out to even properly function half the time anymore.
I lay awake all night long, sick, stressed out, worried about how I'm going to pay the bills, the rent, pay for all of this medical crap that is constantly happening.
Every single day is a medical and financial nightmare for me.
I'm so tired and so scared.
I'm absolutely terrified that I'm not going to be able to hold it together for much longer.
I get sick and then I can't work because I'm too sick to even sit here and type.
If I can't sit here and work, I lose making the money that I so desperately need to pay the rent, bills, and medical crap.
I'm feeling like total crap right now, the right side of my face, the whole right side, is completely swollen, it hurts, my whole jaw hurts.
I called both my pain doc and my primary care, I asked if they could call in some antibiotics, they said no.
They told me to go to the dental clinic butcher shop downtown, or go back to the ER.
I am probably already marked as a "frequent flier" at the ER, so yeah, I really don't want to have to walk back in there, show them my face, and beg them to help me, again.
I'm sick and tired of my ex-husband paying the child support once a freaking month because he knows that he can get away with it.
He doesn't even have to pay that much anymore!
Mark is 18, so he only has to pay for Sebastian, just $59.56 per week, and he refuses to pay it every week like he's supposed to!
He knows that he can miss 3 weekly payments in a row before any legal action is taken, so he doesn't pay for 3 weeks, then pays just the one payment of $59.56, and then doesn't pay again for another 3 weeks!
He hasn't paid a freaking dime since January 8th!
I know that's not much money, but I need every single penny that I can get, that I'm supposed to have.
That weekly child support payment pays for my doctor appointments and medicines, Mark's doctor appointments and medicines, helps buy food, and helps to pay some of the bills, and he just keeps avoiding paying it.
It's not fair!
When I say that I'm really scared, I mean it.
I honestly don't know how much longer I can keep this pace up, how much longer that I can try to hold my life together financially.
Everything is a mess, I get sick, I lose work, I lose work, I lose money, I lose money, I get behind on my bills and rent.
I am falling apart here, just falling apart and I'm scared.
I need help, I need someone to just come and make it all better, take the burdens off of me for awhile.
I need someone to just come into my life and take over for awhile, pay the bills, buy the food, pay for the medicines and appointments, and clothes for the 2 growing boys, I need someone to just come take over, I am struggling so hard and I am terrified.
It is so hard for me to admit my failings, to admit that I need someone to help me, to just take control before I lose control and lose everything, house and job, everything, but I am losing it here folks, I'm really losing it.
I really don't know how I'm going to hold it together for much longer.
I have so many bills all due during the first 3 days of February, and I do not have the money, I just don't have it.
I'm not going to have it.
Do you see?
Do you see at all?
Have you ever been so scared that you're really going to lose it all this time?
That this is it, this time is going to be the time that you just can't hold it together any longer and you can do absolutely nothing at all about it?
I can't do anything about it.
Nothing.
I'm so lost and so scared, and just wow, I really don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to hold this life of mine together.
This life of mine.
It's not a life anymore, it's just fear, stress, and worry 24 hours a day, I'm really losing control.
Lately, it's been one thing after another with me, it all feels like it's falling apart, fast.
I turn 40 on March 1st, and my body is breaking down faster and faster as each day passes, or at least that's how I feel, that's what it feels like what's happening to me.
Intestinal viruses, drastic weight loss, illness after illness, medication changes, and then at 4am today, this Thursday morning, my way back right molar, which has been broken for a long time, freaking exploded like I got shot in the face.
I couldn't sleep, as usual, and all of a sudden, it felt like I had literally been shot in the face.
The entire right side of my face immediately swelled up huge, my gums are completely swollen, my whole face hurts, the swelling is moving up the whole side of my face, my right eye is swelling shut, it's really pretty bad.
The antibiotics that I have are not working on it, not yet at least, I need to go see a dentist, but there is absolutely no dental coverage on Medicare, none.
I simply do not have the money to go see a dentist, I won't have the money to see a dentist for a very long time, and even if I did have the money, I cannot open my jaw wide anymore, an extraction of that broken tooth would have to be done while I was put under, and they would have to be extremely careful or they could break my jaw.
Being put under for extractions cost a ton of money that I just do not have, will not have.
But first, before anything like an extraction could even be discussed, I need the correct antibiotics to get rid of this massive infection that is taking place and spreading.
If this abscesses, it can get into my blood stream and make me even sicker than I already am all of the time.
I'm so tired people, so so tired.
I'm tired of being sick, I'm tired of having things go wrong, I'm exhausted from struggling to make ends meet, I'm stressed out all of the time, it's really no wonder that I don't sleep and can barely eat, I'm far too stressed out to even properly function half the time anymore.
I lay awake all night long, sick, stressed out, worried about how I'm going to pay the bills, the rent, pay for all of this medical crap that is constantly happening.
Every single day is a medical and financial nightmare for me.
I'm so tired and so scared.
I'm absolutely terrified that I'm not going to be able to hold it together for much longer.
I get sick and then I can't work because I'm too sick to even sit here and type.
If I can't sit here and work, I lose making the money that I so desperately need to pay the rent, bills, and medical crap.
I'm feeling like total crap right now, the right side of my face, the whole right side, is completely swollen, it hurts, my whole jaw hurts.
I called both my pain doc and my primary care, I asked if they could call in some antibiotics, they said no.
They told me to go to the dental clinic butcher shop downtown, or go back to the ER.
I am probably already marked as a "frequent flier" at the ER, so yeah, I really don't want to have to walk back in there, show them my face, and beg them to help me, again.
I'm sick and tired of my ex-husband paying the child support once a freaking month because he knows that he can get away with it.
He doesn't even have to pay that much anymore!
Mark is 18, so he only has to pay for Sebastian, just $59.56 per week, and he refuses to pay it every week like he's supposed to!
He knows that he can miss 3 weekly payments in a row before any legal action is taken, so he doesn't pay for 3 weeks, then pays just the one payment of $59.56, and then doesn't pay again for another 3 weeks!
He hasn't paid a freaking dime since January 8th!
I know that's not much money, but I need every single penny that I can get, that I'm supposed to have.
That weekly child support payment pays for my doctor appointments and medicines, Mark's doctor appointments and medicines, helps buy food, and helps to pay some of the bills, and he just keeps avoiding paying it.
It's not fair!
When I say that I'm really scared, I mean it.
I honestly don't know how much longer I can keep this pace up, how much longer that I can try to hold my life together financially.
Everything is a mess, I get sick, I lose work, I lose work, I lose money, I lose money, I get behind on my bills and rent.
I am falling apart here, just falling apart and I'm scared.
I need help, I need someone to just come and make it all better, take the burdens off of me for awhile.
I need someone to just come into my life and take over for awhile, pay the bills, buy the food, pay for the medicines and appointments, and clothes for the 2 growing boys, I need someone to just come take over, I am struggling so hard and I am terrified.
It is so hard for me to admit my failings, to admit that I need someone to help me, to just take control before I lose control and lose everything, house and job, everything, but I am losing it here folks, I'm really losing it.
I really don't know how I'm going to hold it together for much longer.
I have so many bills all due during the first 3 days of February, and I do not have the money, I just don't have it.
I'm not going to have it.
Do you see?
Do you see at all?
Have you ever been so scared that you're really going to lose it all this time?
That this is it, this time is going to be the time that you just can't hold it together any longer and you can do absolutely nothing at all about it?
I can't do anything about it.
Nothing.
I'm so lost and so scared, and just wow, I really don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to hold this life of mine together.
This life of mine.
It's not a life anymore, it's just fear, stress, and worry 24 hours a day, I'm really losing control.
Like I've said a few times now, I am losing weight through being sick and not eating right, and I am a whole lot less weighing than I have been in awhile, but I still have a belly.
I have no idea how to reduce belly fat that I have.
I have belly pudge, that's what make me feel fat, having that there all of the damn time.
That's what makes me feel like a huge cow, having a bulging belly.
I would love to be able to get rid of it, but without the ability to do any of the traditional core exercises, I am stusck with the belly pudge.
I know that it's all pure fat, it squishes and jiggles, so yeah, total fat.
I would probably need some liposuction and some plastic surgery to remove all of that hanging flabby skin after they suck all of the fat out of me.
When I win the Powerball, the first thing I'm doing is buying a house, and the second thing that I'm doing is liposuction and plastic surgery to remove all of the flabby and hanging skin.
I would feel tons better about my body then because other than the belly, I have a really great body.
If I do say so myself.
I have no idea how to reduce belly fat that I have.
I have belly pudge, that's what make me feel fat, having that there all of the damn time.
That's what makes me feel like a huge cow, having a bulging belly.
I would love to be able to get rid of it, but without the ability to do any of the traditional core exercises, I am stusck with the belly pudge.
I know that it's all pure fat, it squishes and jiggles, so yeah, total fat.
I would probably need some liposuction and some plastic surgery to remove all of that hanging flabby skin after they suck all of the fat out of me.
When I win the Powerball, the first thing I'm doing is buying a house, and the second thing that I'm doing is liposuction and plastic surgery to remove all of the flabby and hanging skin.
I would feel tons better about my body then because other than the belly, I have a really great body.
If I do say so myself.
best fat burning supplement is, but I would have to say that any type of gastrointestinal disorder is a damn good close second.
I spent most of my Sunday afternoon today in the ER of Doctor's Hospital, the only local hospital that I ever go to any more because of the care and compassion the doctors and nurses provide.
But anyway, I got there today after having not slept for almost 5 days in a row now, and because when I finally did fall asleep this morning for all of 10 minutes, I woke to find myself puking my guts out for about 30 minutes.
That was it, I've had enough of this 3 week long stomach crap, so off to the ER I went.
She ran a bunch of tests, did a dehydration test on me, and then had the nurses start pumping me with fluids.
3 full bags of fluids by the time the day was done, 2 injections of some type of stomach meds, 2 injections of dilaudid for the pain and severe muscle cramps that wouldn't stop for almost 2 hours.
Anyway, the doc says that I have some sort of intestinal virus, she gave me 2 meds to take, tells me to increase my liquids, and to call my doctor in the morning to make him fully away that he's not giving me enough meds to survive the whole month which was a partial cause to the intestinal virus.
So yueah, a fun way to spend a Sunday afternoon.
I spent most of my Sunday afternoon today in the ER of Doctor's Hospital, the only local hospital that I ever go to any more because of the care and compassion the doctors and nurses provide.
But anyway, I got there today after having not slept for almost 5 days in a row now, and because when I finally did fall asleep this morning for all of 10 minutes, I woke to find myself puking my guts out for about 30 minutes.
That was it, I've had enough of this 3 week long stomach crap, so off to the ER I went.
She ran a bunch of tests, did a dehydration test on me, and then had the nurses start pumping me with fluids.
3 full bags of fluids by the time the day was done, 2 injections of some type of stomach meds, 2 injections of dilaudid for the pain and severe muscle cramps that wouldn't stop for almost 2 hours.
Anyway, the doc says that I have some sort of intestinal virus, she gave me 2 meds to take, tells me to increase my liquids, and to call my doctor in the morning to make him fully away that he's not giving me enough meds to survive the whole month which was a partial cause to the intestinal virus.
So yueah, a fun way to spend a Sunday afternoon.
I still don't have the slightest clue what the very best diet supplements are, but just since November 10, 2009, I've lost 34.4lbs.
I weighed 196.5, and when I weighed myself, actually my friend Nic forced me on the scale after listening to me complain about how fat I was, and I now weigh just 162.1 lbs.
I do know though that I haven't lost it the right way.
The right way being through healthy eating, exercise, and plenty of water, so I'm almost positive that I'll end up putting it all back on at some point.
I lost the weight by a combination of factors.
One was that I'm always sick.
I catch everything that goes around, plus I get med sick when my meds get changed like they have been 5 times over the last 3 months, or if I run out, which causes very painful withdrawal symptoms and makes it so that I can't eat or even drink anything for days on end due to my stomach cramping up, the diars, pukes, etc.
I had the flu, I think it was the flu, all last week, then I ran out of meds and didn't have the money to go get them for about 3 and a half days.
So I know that the way that I lost this weight isn't the right way and it will probably all come back, but it still feels good to know that I don't weigh almost 200lbs anymore.
I weighed 196.5, and when I weighed myself, actually my friend Nic forced me on the scale after listening to me complain about how fat I was, and I now weigh just 162.1 lbs.
I do know though that I haven't lost it the right way.
The right way being through healthy eating, exercise, and plenty of water, so I'm almost positive that I'll end up putting it all back on at some point.
I lost the weight by a combination of factors.
One was that I'm always sick.
I catch everything that goes around, plus I get med sick when my meds get changed like they have been 5 times over the last 3 months, or if I run out, which causes very painful withdrawal symptoms and makes it so that I can't eat or even drink anything for days on end due to my stomach cramping up, the diars, pukes, etc.
I had the flu, I think it was the flu, all last week, then I ran out of meds and didn't have the money to go get them for about 3 and a half days.
So I know that the way that I lost this weight isn't the right way and it will probably all come back, but it still feels good to know that I don't weigh almost 200lbs anymore.
I can't be entirely sure just yet if the cause is the new medication, or if I caught the flu.
If it's the med, I have stopped taking it and that should cause the sickness to stop.
If it's the flu, the puking will continue.
Either way, I don't think I have to worry about gaining any new belly fat for awhile.
What med did he put me on?
Methadone.
Yes, Methadone is what they give to people addicted to heroin or other narcotics, but it's also given to people dealing with long term pain because it's like morphine.
He is giving it to me for this month until he gets clearance from the insurance, Humana, to give me an immediate release generic oxycontin pain medication.
Humana does not like to allow that particular med, and they make sure that any patient getting it is closely monitored, both in dosage and weight.
The immediate release oxycontin 30mg is dosed based upon weight, my weight has been fluctuating pretty significantly for the last 6 months.
The patients weight determines how many of the 30mg pills to give the patient every day.
The heavier you are, the more they have to give you.
The skinnier you are, the less they have to give you.
My weight has been fluctuating between 10-15lbs up or down for 6 months, I gain it and lose it, rapidly, and not really sure why.
I am concerned that the Methadone is what caused me to puke non-stop last night because it is so similar to morphine which I am highly allergic to.
It is only 1 chemical molecule off from morphine, which means it's very, very similar to morphine.
I told my doctor when he asked if I was allergic to morphine, that I was, he asked what happens when I take it and I told him.
I itch so badly on every inch of my body, that I have pulled out huge clumps of hair while sleeping, that I have scratched so hard on my legs, stomach and arms, that I have actually caused huge gashes in my skin that have gotten infected, and I have gotten very sick to the point that eating anything at all came straight back out within minutes of eating it.
Even trying to take tiny sips of water or Diet Pepsi last night caused me to be very ill.
Deep scratches scab over, scabs itch, so I have scratched at the itchy scabs until they became infected and ended up having to be treated by doctors and antibiotics.
He still prescribed the methadone.
I don't understand that, if he knows how similar it is, is he just hoping that it won't affect me the same as morphine?
I did not take my dose last night or this morning, I am only supposed to take it twice a day, and I am now not taking it, screw that.
If it is the methadone causing the pukes, I am not going to take it.
If I stop taking it and remain sick for days or a week, I'll know it was the flu.
But I don't feel like I have the flu, I have no flu symptoms other than puking, no fever, no lethargy, nada, just puking, so I am almost like 99% positive that it's the methadone and how similar it is to morphine that is causing the sickness.
I should know for definite by tomorrow after not taking it for about 24-48 hours.
I'll tell you what though, I am really not happy about being a guinea pig with the testing of drugs.
I had a drug that worked for my pain, it's unavailable, there is another in the exact same family, just immediate release instead of extended release, that will work, and they are not allowing me to have it.
Instead, I've been given a drug that is more than likely causing me to be extremely sick.
I puked out nothing but stomach bile for 3 hours last night after all the food had been thrown out.
Bile burns man, it burns and hurts, and I am not happy about any of this.
It sucks.
I at least have the regular hydrocodone 10/325 for the pain.
It doesn't work as well as the oxycodone ER 40mg, but it will have to do for now while my doctor figures things out with Humana.
If it's the med, I have stopped taking it and that should cause the sickness to stop.
If it's the flu, the puking will continue.
Either way, I don't think I have to worry about gaining any new belly fat for awhile.
What med did he put me on?
Methadone.
Yes, Methadone is what they give to people addicted to heroin or other narcotics, but it's also given to people dealing with long term pain because it's like morphine.
He is giving it to me for this month until he gets clearance from the insurance, Humana, to give me an immediate release generic oxycontin pain medication.
Humana does not like to allow that particular med, and they make sure that any patient getting it is closely monitored, both in dosage and weight.
The immediate release oxycontin 30mg is dosed based upon weight, my weight has been fluctuating pretty significantly for the last 6 months.
The patients weight determines how many of the 30mg pills to give the patient every day.
The heavier you are, the more they have to give you.
The skinnier you are, the less they have to give you.
My weight has been fluctuating between 10-15lbs up or down for 6 months, I gain it and lose it, rapidly, and not really sure why.
I am concerned that the Methadone is what caused me to puke non-stop last night because it is so similar to morphine which I am highly allergic to.
It is only 1 chemical molecule off from morphine, which means it's very, very similar to morphine.
I told my doctor when he asked if I was allergic to morphine, that I was, he asked what happens when I take it and I told him.
I itch so badly on every inch of my body, that I have pulled out huge clumps of hair while sleeping, that I have scratched so hard on my legs, stomach and arms, that I have actually caused huge gashes in my skin that have gotten infected, and I have gotten very sick to the point that eating anything at all came straight back out within minutes of eating it.
Even trying to take tiny sips of water or Diet Pepsi last night caused me to be very ill.
Deep scratches scab over, scabs itch, so I have scratched at the itchy scabs until they became infected and ended up having to be treated by doctors and antibiotics.
He still prescribed the methadone.
I don't understand that, if he knows how similar it is, is he just hoping that it won't affect me the same as morphine?
I did not take my dose last night or this morning, I am only supposed to take it twice a day, and I am now not taking it, screw that.
If it is the methadone causing the pukes, I am not going to take it.
If I stop taking it and remain sick for days or a week, I'll know it was the flu.
But I don't feel like I have the flu, I have no flu symptoms other than puking, no fever, no lethargy, nada, just puking, so I am almost like 99% positive that it's the methadone and how similar it is to morphine that is causing the sickness.
I should know for definite by tomorrow after not taking it for about 24-48 hours.
I'll tell you what though, I am really not happy about being a guinea pig with the testing of drugs.
I had a drug that worked for my pain, it's unavailable, there is another in the exact same family, just immediate release instead of extended release, that will work, and they are not allowing me to have it.
Instead, I've been given a drug that is more than likely causing me to be extremely sick.
I puked out nothing but stomach bile for 3 hours last night after all the food had been thrown out.
Bile burns man, it burns and hurts, and I am not happy about any of this.
It sucks.
I at least have the regular hydrocodone 10/325 for the pain.
It doesn't work as well as the oxycodone ER 40mg, but it will have to do for now while my doctor figures things out with Humana.
When I went for a walk to 7-eleven last night, it's now Saturday morning, so Friday night, I saw that one of my neighbors up the street from me was throwing out all kinds of stuff.
I think they bought the house, so this is all probably stuff left in the house from the last owners.
They bought the house as is, I do remember the for sale sign, the house was really cheap because of all of the problems it has.
The sign said it was just $89,900, and it also said in big red letters, "AS IS".
It has been through like 3 owners in the last 4 years, there's something really wrong with it to go through that many owners in so few years.
I do know that a few years ago, one of the big trees in the backyard fell on or through the roof, so maybe that's the reason or one of the reasons, the house sold for so cheap and why it's been through so many owners.
Anyway, I couldn't help but notice all of the stuff being thrown out because there was so much of it.
Boxes and boxes of magazines and books, a couple of cabinets for what looked like the bathroom, a weight lifting bench that was seriously beat up, some weights to go on it, a box of old sneakers, a big broken wall mirror, and one of those roller weight thingies, it has a handle on each side, a weight in the middle, it looks like one of those industrial hand wheels thingies except that it has a handle on each side, not just one side, and you are supposed to get on the floor, face down, grab the handles and roll back and forth, like doing a push up with it, but rolls.
I guess you use that when doing push-ups because it makes it easier to do push-ups with it, you just roll back with it underneath you to move your body up, roll it forward to go back down.
I've used one of them before, it does make push-ups easier.
I wanted to take it home with me, it was in good shape, not all beat up like the weight bench is, and I wanted to grab some of the small hand weights that I saw in a box too, but Mark was with me and he's not supposed to carry anything heavier than 10lbs, and so tomorrow if the stuff is still there, I'll have Sebastian take a walk with me and grab it and the hand weights too.
Both Mark and I can use the weights and stuff to help strengthen our cores up.
He's not supposed to lift more than 10lbs, but he can use some of the smaller hand weights and that roller weight to do push-ups, and he can start doing some exercises to strengthen his core muscles.
He's going to need to get his abs in shape for his surgery when they decide to do it, so we might as well take those weights that other people are throwing away and put them to good use getting our bodies in shape.
I need to do core exercises myself, and so sitting in a chair with some small hand weights, tightening, flexing, and releasing my stomach muscles with each rep can help tighten up my ab muscles.
I can't do traditional ab exercises anymore, haven't been able to do a real sit-up or crunch in years now, but doing some small but simple ab flexing muscles can tighten them up, I've done it before, but adding some weights in my hands and raising them up and down, doing curls with them as I flex my ab muscles, can help tighten them up even faster because of the added weight.
I can teach Mark how to do this, how to get his abs in shape without trying to do sit-ups or crunches which hurt the lower lumbar area really bad, hell, just bending over to pick something up off of the floor hurts the lower back, so he will be happy to see that he can exercise his abs without the pain that is usually involved.
And this reminds me, I need to teach him how to do an ab workout while lying in bed.
I did this for months after my first surgery because they said that I needed to tighten my core up so my muscles would be able to support all of the new hardware, but I couldn't do regular workouts, so I would lie in bed on my back, suck in my stomach as tight as I could while inhaling, and then on the exhale, push my stomach muscles all of the way out, as far as they would go, it would make me look like I was 9 months pregnant, (hahah) and then inhale and suck in my abs again.
I would do as many reps of those as I could until it started to really hurt my back muscles or feel like it was starting to tearmy muscles or tear at the stitches, and when I'd get back up after putting my back brace on, I could really feel the difference.
After about 6 months of doing that, I could tell by looking in the mirror that it was working very well.
No I didn't end up with a set of rockin' 6-pack abs, but my stomach was definitely flatter and leaner looking.
It felt really good too, it physically felt good, I could really feel that both my stomach and back muscles were tighter and stronger, and it also helped to relieve some of the pain in my lower back.
I really need to teach him that exercise, it may help relieve some of the lumbar pain that he has.
I wish I had remembered this sooner, it could have helped him be out of some of the pain that he's in.
Well, better late than never right?
I can teach him this exercise now, and he can start getting his abs in shape and tighten up his back muscles so he can be ready for surgery and be out of some of the pain that he suffers from.
I should start doing it again too, I'm starting to get flabby looking in my gut again, and it does help with the lower back pain.
I think they bought the house, so this is all probably stuff left in the house from the last owners.
They bought the house as is, I do remember the for sale sign, the house was really cheap because of all of the problems it has.
The sign said it was just $89,900, and it also said in big red letters, "AS IS".
It has been through like 3 owners in the last 4 years, there's something really wrong with it to go through that many owners in so few years.
I do know that a few years ago, one of the big trees in the backyard fell on or through the roof, so maybe that's the reason or one of the reasons, the house sold for so cheap and why it's been through so many owners.
Anyway, I couldn't help but notice all of the stuff being thrown out because there was so much of it.
Boxes and boxes of magazines and books, a couple of cabinets for what looked like the bathroom, a weight lifting bench that was seriously beat up, some weights to go on it, a box of old sneakers, a big broken wall mirror, and one of those roller weight thingies, it has a handle on each side, a weight in the middle, it looks like one of those industrial hand wheels thingies except that it has a handle on each side, not just one side, and you are supposed to get on the floor, face down, grab the handles and roll back and forth, like doing a push up with it, but rolls.
I guess you use that when doing push-ups because it makes it easier to do push-ups with it, you just roll back with it underneath you to move your body up, roll it forward to go back down.
I've used one of them before, it does make push-ups easier.
I wanted to take it home with me, it was in good shape, not all beat up like the weight bench is, and I wanted to grab some of the small hand weights that I saw in a box too, but Mark was with me and he's not supposed to carry anything heavier than 10lbs, and so tomorrow if the stuff is still there, I'll have Sebastian take a walk with me and grab it and the hand weights too.
Both Mark and I can use the weights and stuff to help strengthen our cores up.
He's not supposed to lift more than 10lbs, but he can use some of the smaller hand weights and that roller weight to do push-ups, and he can start doing some exercises to strengthen his core muscles.
He's going to need to get his abs in shape for his surgery when they decide to do it, so we might as well take those weights that other people are throwing away and put them to good use getting our bodies in shape.
I need to do core exercises myself, and so sitting in a chair with some small hand weights, tightening, flexing, and releasing my stomach muscles with each rep can help tighten up my ab muscles.
I can't do traditional ab exercises anymore, haven't been able to do a real sit-up or crunch in years now, but doing some small but simple ab flexing muscles can tighten them up, I've done it before, but adding some weights in my hands and raising them up and down, doing curls with them as I flex my ab muscles, can help tighten them up even faster because of the added weight.
I can teach Mark how to do this, how to get his abs in shape without trying to do sit-ups or crunches which hurt the lower lumbar area really bad, hell, just bending over to pick something up off of the floor hurts the lower back, so he will be happy to see that he can exercise his abs without the pain that is usually involved.
And this reminds me, I need to teach him how to do an ab workout while lying in bed.
I did this for months after my first surgery because they said that I needed to tighten my core up so my muscles would be able to support all of the new hardware, but I couldn't do regular workouts, so I would lie in bed on my back, suck in my stomach as tight as I could while inhaling, and then on the exhale, push my stomach muscles all of the way out, as far as they would go, it would make me look like I was 9 months pregnant, (hahah) and then inhale and suck in my abs again.
I would do as many reps of those as I could until it started to really hurt my back muscles or feel like it was starting to tearmy muscles or tear at the stitches, and when I'd get back up after putting my back brace on, I could really feel the difference.
After about 6 months of doing that, I could tell by looking in the mirror that it was working very well.
No I didn't end up with a set of rockin' 6-pack abs, but my stomach was definitely flatter and leaner looking.
It felt really good too, it physically felt good, I could really feel that both my stomach and back muscles were tighter and stronger, and it also helped to relieve some of the pain in my lower back.
I really need to teach him that exercise, it may help relieve some of the lumbar pain that he has.
I wish I had remembered this sooner, it could have helped him be out of some of the pain that he's in.
Well, better late than never right?
I can teach him this exercise now, and he can start getting his abs in shape and tighten up his back muscles so he can be ready for surgery and be out of some of the pain that he suffers from.
I should start doing it again too, I'm starting to get flabby looking in my gut again, and it does help with the lower back pain.
No no, we have food, I just can't eat anything.
Between not feeling right, (I'm feeling all weird-ish so I can't eat) and stressing out and feeling bad over Mark's situation, I just have no appetite.
I have weight loss pills, some new ones, just a small sample pack the doc gave me, but I haven't needed to take any at all since he gave them to me.
I just haven't felt like eating much of anything in a few weeks now, so I've definitely lost weight, but I also know that not eating properly is bad for me.
I'm sure that I'll get my appetite back, don't know when, but when I do get it back, I know that I'll pig out on some Ben & Jerry's Phish Food.
Man, I love that stuff, I could eat it by the gallon.
Between not feeling right, (I'm feeling all weird-ish so I can't eat) and stressing out and feeling bad over Mark's situation, I just have no appetite.
I have weight loss pills, some new ones, just a small sample pack the doc gave me, but I haven't needed to take any at all since he gave them to me.
I just haven't felt like eating much of anything in a few weeks now, so I've definitely lost weight, but I also know that not eating properly is bad for me.
I'm sure that I'll get my appetite back, don't know when, but when I do get it back, I know that I'll pig out on some Ben & Jerry's Phish Food.
Man, I love that stuff, I could eat it by the gallon.
I went and saw my pain doc today and actually got to see him, not his physician's assistant like I have been seeing the last 3 visits.
This is something that I had talked about before, that I wanted to see him, because he's the only one who can change my medications, fix the dosage and amounts, or remove one that isn't working and try something else.
The PA just gives you the prescriptions that he has prescribed you, already signed by him in the morning.
That's how they can see so many patients, there's him, another pain doc, and then 3 PA's.
Every morning before they open, the 2 doctor's go through the files of every patient that will be seen that day, they write out the scripts, sign them, and then when the patient comes, the scripts are ready to go, and you have your appointment with him or the PA, whoever you are scheduled to see.
At last month's appointment, I told his PA that I wanted to see him at my next appointment because the meds I am on just aren't working as well anymore, that I'm having a rough time of things like they are, so they scheduled me to see him today.
I told him how things were going, how the meds they gave me had caused me to end up in the ER, he had the notes from the ER and had spoken to the doc who treated me that night by phone, and he apologized to me for that happening, and had made a note in my file to make sure that I am never given those particular meds again.
Basically they got added to the list of meds that I am allergic to so that from now on, no one ever gives me those again, and he said at my next appointment, he will have a typed up and signed allergy card for me to carry in my wallet in case there is ever any emergency and I am unable to speak.
He said that the allergy card needs to be in my wallet right with my ID card so that if I'm ever in an accident, the EMTs or police, whoever, when they get my ID out to identify me, they will also find the allergy card so that any medical people who treat me will know what I cannot be given.
I thanked him for that because trying to remember 4 meds accurately by name and spelling is hard enough in good condition, so trying to remember them by name and spelling accurately in a bad situation, would be very difficult.
I also talked to him about my weight, that I am going through losing weight/gaining weight phases which I am not happy about, and the muscle spasms I get in my middle and lower back, pain from doing pretty much anything like walking, doing dishes, and going grocery shopping, which causes me to take more pain medication, and my never ending battle with insomnia.
He asked if I wanted a sleeping pill and I told him no because they don't work for me, I know this from experience.
I had been prescribed sleeping pills by my primary care doc, we tried 3 different ones, and they all wired me up instead of putting me to sleep.
So I asked him if he ever heard of a product called Stemulite, and if he had, what did he think of me trying something like that.
Stemulite, according to it's makers and from user testimonials, is supposed to be good for several things.
Things like improved sleep, increase strength and reduce pain from working out or exercising, increase muscle tone and endurance, and increase weight loss, wellness and energy.
He said that he hadn't heard of it, at least he didn't think he had, so he had me spell it and he wrote it down, said he would look it up and at my next appointment, he'd let me know what he thought of it.
He said he generally doesn't like prescribing any type of weight loss medication unless the patient is severely obese, which I am not, but he is concerned about the fact that doing things that are easy for most people, things like grocery shopping for example, cause me to be in a lot of pain and have bad muscle spasms in my lower back for many hours afterward, and my constant insomnia.
He said it was really odd and definitely not the norm that I can't sleep when the pain medications that I take normally cause most people who take them to be very tired, they all cause severe drowsiness, but not for me, instead of even being slightly tired, I'm wired up and ready to go.
So he said he would definitely look into it and let me know what he thinks because there has got to be something that will work for me, something to help me with the multiple issues that I have, insomnia, increased pain from doing even simple things, muscle spasms, and my weight always fluctuating.
At my appointment last month, I had lost 7lbs, the appointment before that, I had gained 10lbs, and at today's appointment, I had lost 9lbs, up and down like a yo-yo.
He said he would be ok with me trying something like Stemulite after he looks into it, because so far, nothing seems to be working for me, my muscles are just not healed up well and they should be, they should have far more strength than they do, so maybe next month, he'll give me the ok to try it.
That would be awesome if he did ok it, I've been looking into it for quite awhile now, I posted about it when I found out about it back in April, so yeah, if he ok's this, it really just might be what could help me with all of the things that I am having trouble with.
My latest battle with insomnia lasted for 6 days.
During those 6 days, I only got a total of 3 hours of sleep.
It was an absolute hell, I was like going crazy from the lack of sleep, I tried and tried, I did all of the things I could think of to try and relax myself to sleep, things like gentle stretching and then relaxing of each part of my body starting at my toes and working my way up.
I tried taking a warm shower, I tried listening to very quiet classical music, and even some lullaby music I have, I tried drinking some sleepy time tea, and I even bought some over the counter sleeping pills which was a HUGE mistake because I KNEW they wouldn't work from my own experiences with prescription sleeping pills, but I was desperate for sleep, so I was trying anything I could and nothing worked at all.
It really sucks when you can't sleep, it makes you crazy.
So anyway , today's appointment went very well, we talked about a lot of things, he increased the doses of the meds that I take, and promised to look into Stemulite for me, to see if it will have any side effects or if it will interact badly with the meds that I currently take, and I also got a copy of my pain management contract.
He said he will also make sure that I get copies of the drug tests that he does on me every month, and the 2 random tests that he's done so far, and those will be ready for me to pick up at next month's appointment or if I want them earlier than that, to just give them a 72 hour phone call/notice, and he said they will be available to pick up after that.
But he said that I have passed every single drug test so far, and from the records he got from my previous pain doc, that I also passed every drug test that they did on me.
He did ask me why I wanted these things, so I told him what was going on.
That was really hard for me to tell him, I almost busted up bawling my eyes out but was able to hold it together for the most part, only cried a little bit.
He told me that if I had ever failed even just 1 of the drug tests that his office does, that he would have stopped being my doctor and would have added my name to the blacklist database, and he told me not to worry about it, to just let it go, let people think whatever they want to think because they don't make my health care and pain management decisions, he does, and if I had failed any of the tests, he would have personally told me that I did.
He also told me that I'm not the first and certainly will not be the last patient being treated for chronic pain, that people accuse of being addicts, he said that he hears it from almost every single one of his patients, that their families just don't understand, and probably never will.
He said that if any of those people ever had to deal with even just 1 day of the kind of pain we are in, they would change their tune in a heartbeat, and he doesn't wish that kind of pain on anyone, but he said that it would be the only way that anyone would understand, they would have to spend a day in our shoes to "get it", so I need to let it go, ignore what the people say, and just keep on doing what I'm doing, keep making my appointments, keep taking the monthly and random drug tests, and just try to live my life the best that I can, that those people don't live my life, and they should consider themselves lucky that they don't.
He's a pretty cool doc, I wish I could see him every month instead of his PA who talks wicked fast and into a tape recorder the whole appointment, but it's up to the scheduler who I get put with, and next month, I get to be with him again because of the things he said he's going to do, but then after that, I'll probably get with the PA again.
Oh well, at least I get to see him again next month and find out if I can take the Stemulite.
I might dust off my scanner and just scan the pain management contract, which I noticed is a new version, this one has been condensed to 3 pages down from the previous 8 page one.
I asked the office staff why it was smaller, and they said that they realized it was just far too wordy, that the new one says what it needs to say without all the extra and often confused wording. They told me that once I read through it, it is totally clear, that there can be absolutely no confusion over any of their rules at all.
Just glancing at it for a minute while waiting for the scheduler, I was like uh yeah, definitely plain as day what you can and cannot do as one of his patients.
But yeah, I might just scan it and have it available to email to anyone who wants to read it and understand that I absolutely cannot fail a single drug test, miss more than 3 appointments, or lose/have stolen any of my medications.
There is NO room for mistakes as one of his patients.
He is a very good and kind pain management doctor, but he's definitely not the kind of guy that you can try to roll one over on. He's heard all of the excuses people have, and he knows every single way that someone can try and pull one over on him, and it isn't going to happen with him, he's very strict with his rules, he has to be.
Anyway, that's my update for now.
I have a ton of emails to catch up on, a contest winner to draw which was supposed to be done yesterday, (UGH!) and then some dishes to do.
This is something that I had talked about before, that I wanted to see him, because he's the only one who can change my medications, fix the dosage and amounts, or remove one that isn't working and try something else.
The PA just gives you the prescriptions that he has prescribed you, already signed by him in the morning.
That's how they can see so many patients, there's him, another pain doc, and then 3 PA's.
Every morning before they open, the 2 doctor's go through the files of every patient that will be seen that day, they write out the scripts, sign them, and then when the patient comes, the scripts are ready to go, and you have your appointment with him or the PA, whoever you are scheduled to see.
At last month's appointment, I told his PA that I wanted to see him at my next appointment because the meds I am on just aren't working as well anymore, that I'm having a rough time of things like they are, so they scheduled me to see him today.
I told him how things were going, how the meds they gave me had caused me to end up in the ER, he had the notes from the ER and had spoken to the doc who treated me that night by phone, and he apologized to me for that happening, and had made a note in my file to make sure that I am never given those particular meds again.
Basically they got added to the list of meds that I am allergic to so that from now on, no one ever gives me those again, and he said at my next appointment, he will have a typed up and signed allergy card for me to carry in my wallet in case there is ever any emergency and I am unable to speak.
He said that the allergy card needs to be in my wallet right with my ID card so that if I'm ever in an accident, the EMTs or police, whoever, when they get my ID out to identify me, they will also find the allergy card so that any medical people who treat me will know what I cannot be given.
I thanked him for that because trying to remember 4 meds accurately by name and spelling is hard enough in good condition, so trying to remember them by name and spelling accurately in a bad situation, would be very difficult.
I also talked to him about my weight, that I am going through losing weight/gaining weight phases which I am not happy about, and the muscle spasms I get in my middle and lower back, pain from doing pretty much anything like walking, doing dishes, and going grocery shopping, which causes me to take more pain medication, and my never ending battle with insomnia.
He asked if I wanted a sleeping pill and I told him no because they don't work for me, I know this from experience.
I had been prescribed sleeping pills by my primary care doc, we tried 3 different ones, and they all wired me up instead of putting me to sleep.
So I asked him if he ever heard of a product called Stemulite, and if he had, what did he think of me trying something like that.
Stemulite, according to it's makers and from user testimonials, is supposed to be good for several things.
Things like improved sleep, increase strength and reduce pain from working out or exercising, increase muscle tone and endurance, and increase weight loss, wellness and energy.
He said that he hadn't heard of it, at least he didn't think he had, so he had me spell it and he wrote it down, said he would look it up and at my next appointment, he'd let me know what he thought of it.
He said he generally doesn't like prescribing any type of weight loss medication unless the patient is severely obese, which I am not, but he is concerned about the fact that doing things that are easy for most people, things like grocery shopping for example, cause me to be in a lot of pain and have bad muscle spasms in my lower back for many hours afterward, and my constant insomnia.
He said it was really odd and definitely not the norm that I can't sleep when the pain medications that I take normally cause most people who take them to be very tired, they all cause severe drowsiness, but not for me, instead of even being slightly tired, I'm wired up and ready to go.
So he said he would definitely look into it and let me know what he thinks because there has got to be something that will work for me, something to help me with the multiple issues that I have, insomnia, increased pain from doing even simple things, muscle spasms, and my weight always fluctuating.
At my appointment last month, I had lost 7lbs, the appointment before that, I had gained 10lbs, and at today's appointment, I had lost 9lbs, up and down like a yo-yo.
He said he would be ok with me trying something like Stemulite after he looks into it, because so far, nothing seems to be working for me, my muscles are just not healed up well and they should be, they should have far more strength than they do, so maybe next month, he'll give me the ok to try it.
That would be awesome if he did ok it, I've been looking into it for quite awhile now, I posted about it when I found out about it back in April, so yeah, if he ok's this, it really just might be what could help me with all of the things that I am having trouble with.
My latest battle with insomnia lasted for 6 days.
During those 6 days, I only got a total of 3 hours of sleep.
It was an absolute hell, I was like going crazy from the lack of sleep, I tried and tried, I did all of the things I could think of to try and relax myself to sleep, things like gentle stretching and then relaxing of each part of my body starting at my toes and working my way up.
I tried taking a warm shower, I tried listening to very quiet classical music, and even some lullaby music I have, I tried drinking some sleepy time tea, and I even bought some over the counter sleeping pills which was a HUGE mistake because I KNEW they wouldn't work from my own experiences with prescription sleeping pills, but I was desperate for sleep, so I was trying anything I could and nothing worked at all.
It really sucks when you can't sleep, it makes you crazy.
So anyway , today's appointment went very well, we talked about a lot of things, he increased the doses of the meds that I take, and promised to look into Stemulite for me, to see if it will have any side effects or if it will interact badly with the meds that I currently take, and I also got a copy of my pain management contract.
He said he will also make sure that I get copies of the drug tests that he does on me every month, and the 2 random tests that he's done so far, and those will be ready for me to pick up at next month's appointment or if I want them earlier than that, to just give them a 72 hour phone call/notice, and he said they will be available to pick up after that.
But he said that I have passed every single drug test so far, and from the records he got from my previous pain doc, that I also passed every drug test that they did on me.
He did ask me why I wanted these things, so I told him what was going on.
That was really hard for me to tell him, I almost busted up bawling my eyes out but was able to hold it together for the most part, only cried a little bit.
He told me that if I had ever failed even just 1 of the drug tests that his office does, that he would have stopped being my doctor and would have added my name to the blacklist database, and he told me not to worry about it, to just let it go, let people think whatever they want to think because they don't make my health care and pain management decisions, he does, and if I had failed any of the tests, he would have personally told me that I did.
He also told me that I'm not the first and certainly will not be the last patient being treated for chronic pain, that people accuse of being addicts, he said that he hears it from almost every single one of his patients, that their families just don't understand, and probably never will.
He said that if any of those people ever had to deal with even just 1 day of the kind of pain we are in, they would change their tune in a heartbeat, and he doesn't wish that kind of pain on anyone, but he said that it would be the only way that anyone would understand, they would have to spend a day in our shoes to "get it", so I need to let it go, ignore what the people say, and just keep on doing what I'm doing, keep making my appointments, keep taking the monthly and random drug tests, and just try to live my life the best that I can, that those people don't live my life, and they should consider themselves lucky that they don't.
He's a pretty cool doc, I wish I could see him every month instead of his PA who talks wicked fast and into a tape recorder the whole appointment, but it's up to the scheduler who I get put with, and next month, I get to be with him again because of the things he said he's going to do, but then after that, I'll probably get with the PA again.
Oh well, at least I get to see him again next month and find out if I can take the Stemulite.
I might dust off my scanner and just scan the pain management contract, which I noticed is a new version, this one has been condensed to 3 pages down from the previous 8 page one.
I asked the office staff why it was smaller, and they said that they realized it was just far too wordy, that the new one says what it needs to say without all the extra and often confused wording. They told me that once I read through it, it is totally clear, that there can be absolutely no confusion over any of their rules at all.
Just glancing at it for a minute while waiting for the scheduler, I was like uh yeah, definitely plain as day what you can and cannot do as one of his patients.
But yeah, I might just scan it and have it available to email to anyone who wants to read it and understand that I absolutely cannot fail a single drug test, miss more than 3 appointments, or lose/have stolen any of my medications.
There is NO room for mistakes as one of his patients.
He is a very good and kind pain management doctor, but he's definitely not the kind of guy that you can try to roll one over on. He's heard all of the excuses people have, and he knows every single way that someone can try and pull one over on him, and it isn't going to happen with him, he's very strict with his rules, he has to be.
Anyway, that's my update for now.
I have a ton of emails to catch up on, a contest winner to draw which was supposed to be done yesterday, (UGH!) and then some dishes to do.
I thought that I would/should start documenting how it's going with the new antidepressant.
I want to keep a record of how it's going so that if any bad or weird side effects happen, I will know what day they happened, and so that I can tell my doctor how I am doing.
I don't want to have to ask my sons or my friends to keep an eye on me like the drug information page says for them to do.
Keeping a record of how I am doing and the side effects, will also help me determine if I am losing or gaining weight, one of the side effects of Elavil is weight gain, so I want to keep an eye on myself.
I am at 170lbs as of tonight, so if I start gaining weight, if I balloon up to 200lbs, for example, I can then ask my doctor to help me lose the weight or change the antidepressant.
If I gain too much weight too soon, I could ask my doctor to change it and also to give me something to help me lose weight, maybe something like some ephedra diet pills that will suppress my appetite as well as give me a boost of energy so that I can lose weight quicker from moving my body more and moving it faster.
Of course, moving my body more and moving it faster,will cause my body to be hurting pretty bad the next day, and it will take a day or 2 of laying down on the couch and taking it easy until I can get the pain back under control again.
It seems like a lot of things in my life lately are of the damned if you do, damned if you don't type of things.
I really am just so lost and confused on what to do about so many things right now.
*sigh*
But anyway, I took the Elavil on Saturday night at 10pm, and just like the previous 4 nights, instead of making me sleepy like it's supposed to do, it wakes me up, gives me a ton of energy, so I went and did the dishes and then cleaned the bathroom.
I don't feel much different yet, no change in emotions or thoughts yet, and I hope that it doesn't take 4 weeks like the drug information page said it might take.
I really hope that it will only take a week, and that I don't have any bad side effects.
But so far, nothing has changed emotionally.
I will keep documenting how things are going as I go.
I want to keep a record of how it's going so that if any bad or weird side effects happen, I will know what day they happened, and so that I can tell my doctor how I am doing.
I don't want to have to ask my sons or my friends to keep an eye on me like the drug information page says for them to do.
Keeping a record of how I am doing and the side effects, will also help me determine if I am losing or gaining weight, one of the side effects of Elavil is weight gain, so I want to keep an eye on myself.
I am at 170lbs as of tonight, so if I start gaining weight, if I balloon up to 200lbs, for example, I can then ask my doctor to help me lose the weight or change the antidepressant.
If I gain too much weight too soon, I could ask my doctor to change it and also to give me something to help me lose weight, maybe something like some ephedra diet pills that will suppress my appetite as well as give me a boost of energy so that I can lose weight quicker from moving my body more and moving it faster.
Of course, moving my body more and moving it faster,will cause my body to be hurting pretty bad the next day, and it will take a day or 2 of laying down on the couch and taking it easy until I can get the pain back under control again.
It seems like a lot of things in my life lately are of the damned if you do, damned if you don't type of things.
I really am just so lost and confused on what to do about so many things right now.
*sigh*
But anyway, I took the Elavil on Saturday night at 10pm, and just like the previous 4 nights, instead of making me sleepy like it's supposed to do, it wakes me up, gives me a ton of energy, so I went and did the dishes and then cleaned the bathroom.
I don't feel much different yet, no change in emotions or thoughts yet, and I hope that it doesn't take 4 weeks like the drug information page said it might take.
I really hope that it will only take a week, and that I don't have any bad side effects.
But so far, nothing has changed emotionally.
I will keep documenting how things are going as I go.
Well, it looks like I'll be back on the hunt for the best weight loss pill again very soon.
One of the side effects of the antidepressant that the doc put me on is weight gain.
Just doing a Google search for various side effects like I do for every new medication I get put on, I came across a lot of search results for weight gain when I was searching for weight loss.
My doc put me on Elavil for my depression.
Anytime I get put on a new medication, I look it up.
I check multiple sites too, I want to make sure that they all say the same thing as far as what it does, side effects, long term effects on the body etc.
Just reading up on Elavil now, and look!
Now people can really freak out!
Oh, this is really just great, I wanted to stop these things from happening, but this drug might make these things happen, and might make them worse.
Awesome!
Elavil can cause you to be suicidal.
That's really fantastic.
I wasn't suicidal before, but I might just get that way now, that's really great
I will have to be monitored for up to 12 weeks from the date I first start taking it, which was on the 14th, because it can cause me to become more depressed and feel suicidal during that first 3 months.
That really stinks.
I am taking this so I can get better, stop being depressed, and it can actually cause me to get even more depressed in the first 3 months of using it.
I'm supposed to warn my family and friends to be alert to the changes in my mood and behavior so that they can tell me to tell my doctor.
My sons have been through enough, they don't need to be watching over me to see if I get worse.
Why the heck do the side effects of these drugs that are supposed to make us better, have to be just as bad or worse than the reason we take them?!
And my doc's PA was wrong, it can take up to 4 weeks to start working, but it could possibly be a rough time during the first 3 months due to he possibility of feeling even more depressed.
Just read through all of the side effects and possible side effects of Elavil, it's really kinda nuts.
I want to know why it says to tell your doctor if you regularly take other medications that make you sleepy, like pain meds or muscle relaxers.
It doesn't say why you should tell your doctor, it just says that you should, and I do, I take pain meds and a muscle relaxer every single day.
Elavil is supposed to make you sleepy, but so far after taking it at night for the last 4 nights now, it is not making me sleepy, it's having the opposite effect, I am wide awake for hours after taking it.
So wide awake in fact, that I have a ton of energy and could start cleaning the house at like midnight.
I don't know, I just don't know.
All I do know is that I don't want to feel worse, I do not want to get more depressed, I do not want to start thinking about suicide, it has already been a horrible 3 months for me, watching myself get more and more depressed, knowing that I was getting worse but still holding it together, I cannot get any worse, I just can't.
It would not be a good thing people, it really wouldn't.
One of the side effects of the antidepressant that the doc put me on is weight gain.
Just doing a Google search for various side effects like I do for every new medication I get put on, I came across a lot of search results for weight gain when I was searching for weight loss.
My doc put me on Elavil for my depression.
Anytime I get put on a new medication, I look it up.
I check multiple sites too, I want to make sure that they all say the same thing as far as what it does, side effects, long term effects on the body etc.
Just reading up on Elavil now, and look!
Now people can really freak out!
You may have thoughts about suicide when you first start taking an antidepressant, especially if you are younger than 24 years old. Your doctor will need to check you at regular visits for at least the first 12 weeks of treatment.I wasn't suicidal before, but I might just get that way now that I'm taking a medicine that is supposed to help me get happy. Ha! Ha! Ha!
Oh, this is really just great, I wanted to stop these things from happening, but this drug might make these things happen, and might make them worse.
Awesome!
Call your doctor at once if you have any new or worsening symptoms such as: mood or behavior changes, anxiety, panic attacks, trouble sleeping, or if you feel impulsive, irritable, agitated, hostile, aggressive, restless, hyperactive (mentally or physically), more depressed, or have thoughts about suicide or hurting yourself.I swear, the side effects of the drug are just as bad as the reason I'm taking the drug.
Elavil can cause you to be suicidal.
That's really fantastic.
I wasn't suicidal before, but I might just get that way now, that's really great
I will have to be monitored for up to 12 weeks from the date I first start taking it, which was on the 14th, because it can cause me to become more depressed and feel suicidal during that first 3 months.
That really stinks.
I am taking this so I can get better, stop being depressed, and it can actually cause me to get even more depressed in the first 3 months of using it.
I'm supposed to warn my family and friends to be alert to the changes in my mood and behavior so that they can tell me to tell my doctor.
My sons have been through enough, they don't need to be watching over me to see if I get worse.
Why the heck do the side effects of these drugs that are supposed to make us better, have to be just as bad or worse than the reason we take them?!
And my doc's PA was wrong, it can take up to 4 weeks to start working, but it could possibly be a rough time during the first 3 months due to he possibility of feeling even more depressed.
Just read through all of the side effects and possible side effects of Elavil, it's really kinda nuts.
I want to know why it says to tell your doctor if you regularly take other medications that make you sleepy, like pain meds or muscle relaxers.
It doesn't say why you should tell your doctor, it just says that you should, and I do, I take pain meds and a muscle relaxer every single day.
Elavil is supposed to make you sleepy, but so far after taking it at night for the last 4 nights now, it is not making me sleepy, it's having the opposite effect, I am wide awake for hours after taking it.
So wide awake in fact, that I have a ton of energy and could start cleaning the house at like midnight.
I don't know, I just don't know.
All I do know is that I don't want to feel worse, I do not want to get more depressed, I do not want to start thinking about suicide, it has already been a horrible 3 months for me, watching myself get more and more depressed, knowing that I was getting worse but still holding it together, I cannot get any worse, I just can't.
It would not be a good thing people, it really wouldn't.
Over the last 10 months now, I've been losing weight through a variety a ways.
One way has been because I was afraid to eat during the day when the teens weren't home because if I got sick, I was choking on my own vomit and almost dying, so I lost weight by not eating.
Another way has been because of the medicines I take, they just decrease my appetite, and some of them make food and drink taste absolutely terrible, so I don't even bother trying to eat when everything tastes like crap.
And since February, I've been cooking with the NuWave Oven Pro which drains off excess fats and oils, and I've lost 15 lbs.
After this next and hopefully last spine fusion surgery, I really want to get serious about my weight and lose even more weight to get down to my ideal weight which is about 140-145, so I've been reading a lot of diet pill reviews, and one that I've been reading has a lot of potential.
I read some Decaslim reviews, and it sounds very promising to help me get to my goal weight.
I look really good at 140-145, not too thin, no bones showing, but not fatty either, my face looks really good at that weight, my frame looks good, I can fit into nice clothes at that weight, and I feel good at that weight.
So, after this next and hopefully last surgery, I am going to get super serious about my weight and take off as much as I can through diet and exercise, and if I need any help, I will check out any supplement help that my doctors recommend and give it a go to get down to 140-145 and finally be at my ideal weight again.
I'm not getting any younger, I've got to get down to a good weight and stay there.
One way has been because I was afraid to eat during the day when the teens weren't home because if I got sick, I was choking on my own vomit and almost dying, so I lost weight by not eating.
Another way has been because of the medicines I take, they just decrease my appetite, and some of them make food and drink taste absolutely terrible, so I don't even bother trying to eat when everything tastes like crap.
And since February, I've been cooking with the NuWave Oven Pro which drains off excess fats and oils, and I've lost 15 lbs.
After this next and hopefully last spine fusion surgery, I really want to get serious about my weight and lose even more weight to get down to my ideal weight which is about 140-145, so I've been reading a lot of diet pill reviews, and one that I've been reading has a lot of potential.
I read some Decaslim reviews, and it sounds very promising to help me get to my goal weight.
I look really good at 140-145, not too thin, no bones showing, but not fatty either, my face looks really good at that weight, my frame looks good, I can fit into nice clothes at that weight, and I feel good at that weight.
So, after this next and hopefully last surgery, I am going to get super serious about my weight and take off as much as I can through diet and exercise, and if I need any help, I will check out any supplement help that my doctors recommend and give it a go to get down to 140-145 and finally be at my ideal weight again.
I'm not getting any younger, I've got to get down to a good weight and stay there.
We women that is.
What are we obsessed with?
Losing weight, being super skinny.
When Stacey and Dustin were here the other night, Stacey and I had some alone girl time, and we talked about a ton of stuff, but one of the things that came up, that always comes up when girls get together, is our weight, and fat, being fat, thinking we are fat, and always asking each other if we know of a diet pill that works.
I did tell Stacey about the one that I was taking for most of last summer before I had to have my last surgery, and I did tell her that it worked for me, but it was kinda pricey.
62 capsules for about $50 I think it was.
I have not been able to start taking it again because I'll be having another surgery, but it did work for me.
I told her that my last bottle that I bought, still had about 40 capsules in it, and if she wanted them, she could have them, then if they worked for her, my new pain doc also sells them, so I would be able to keep getting them for her, she'd just have to give me the money before my appointment every month.
She took me up on my offer, and said she'll let me know if they help her or not.
What are we obsessed with?
Losing weight, being super skinny.
When Stacey and Dustin were here the other night, Stacey and I had some alone girl time, and we talked about a ton of stuff, but one of the things that came up, that always comes up when girls get together, is our weight, and fat, being fat, thinking we are fat, and always asking each other if we know of a diet pill that works.
I did tell Stacey about the one that I was taking for most of last summer before I had to have my last surgery, and I did tell her that it worked for me, but it was kinda pricey.
62 capsules for about $50 I think it was.
I have not been able to start taking it again because I'll be having another surgery, but it did work for me.
I told her that my last bottle that I bought, still had about 40 capsules in it, and if she wanted them, she could have them, then if they worked for her, my new pain doc also sells them, so I would be able to keep getting them for her, she'd just have to give me the money before my appointment every month.
She took me up on my offer, and said she'll let me know if they help her or not.
There are times that I feel like I should be taking more nutritional health supplements, and trying even harder to lose weight even though exercise is totally out of the question for me right now.
Why?
Because shopping for clothes is a total nightmare for me.
Someone had linked to some plus size fashion website this morning on Twitter, and while I hate that term "plus size", I guess that's the term that fits my size.
I'm not huge or obese by any means, I run between a size 14 and 16, but that's considered plus sized, so those are the kinds of clothes I have to shop for.
Did you know that even size 12 is considered plus sized?
So anyway, I click on the link, (not going to link it, just search for plus size women's clothing, and you'll find many sites like this one) and everything I see is either the women in huge blowy dresses, or covered up in duster jackets, and bathing suits called swim-dresses, because they are made with a whole lot of material.
All of the tops and blouses, are also tons of material and huge, wild, and flowery bold prints, nothing has any shape to it at all, it's like they took a big piece of material, cut it a bit, made arm holes, and a head hole, called it a billowy-sleeve tunic, or a ruffled tunic, or a Georgette tunic, slapped on a big price tag, (gotta make up for all of the fabric used to make it so "billowy") and set it out for sale.
All of the clothes are the same way, dresses, sweaters, evening and formal wear, even the lingerie is big, has no shape to it, huge prints that draw even more attention to the amount of fabric you have on your body, and sorry, it's all just hideously ugly.
I mean, just look at this blouse, it's called a "boho blouse", the site I found it on says it's a top seller.
Are women really buying and wearing this hideous thing?!
Every single plus sized blouse I found was like that one, huge, no shape, big and bold prints, just ugly in my opinion.
People wonder why I am always wearing black, it's because it goes with everything, for one, you can dress it up or down simply by adding a few pieces of jewelry and doing your hair and makeup, and because anything else in my size looks like that blouse above!
I can't stand those prints, I can't stand those loud colors and patterns, they are just awful.
The sad thing is that women who are plus sized don't really have a whole lot of options when it comes to clothes.
You either have to hunt around for all solid colors, or you end up with stuff like that, and I've seen so many women in them, and I have to look away.
Really beautiful women in really ugly clothing because there's no options for us.
We need shirts with some shape, just a bit of color, some nicer patterns and prints, not stuff like that, and we don't need yards and yards of fabric.
Why?
Because shopping for clothes is a total nightmare for me.
Someone had linked to some plus size fashion website this morning on Twitter, and while I hate that term "plus size", I guess that's the term that fits my size.
I'm not huge or obese by any means, I run between a size 14 and 16, but that's considered plus sized, so those are the kinds of clothes I have to shop for.
Did you know that even size 12 is considered plus sized?
So anyway, I click on the link, (not going to link it, just search for plus size women's clothing, and you'll find many sites like this one) and everything I see is either the women in huge blowy dresses, or covered up in duster jackets, and bathing suits called swim-dresses, because they are made with a whole lot of material.
All of the tops and blouses, are also tons of material and huge, wild, and flowery bold prints, nothing has any shape to it at all, it's like they took a big piece of material, cut it a bit, made arm holes, and a head hole, called it a billowy-sleeve tunic, or a ruffled tunic, or a Georgette tunic, slapped on a big price tag, (gotta make up for all of the fabric used to make it so "billowy") and set it out for sale.
All of the clothes are the same way, dresses, sweaters, evening and formal wear, even the lingerie is big, has no shape to it, huge prints that draw even more attention to the amount of fabric you have on your body, and sorry, it's all just hideously ugly.
I mean, just look at this blouse, it's called a "boho blouse", the site I found it on says it's a top seller.
Are women really buying and wearing this hideous thing?!
Every single plus sized blouse I found was like that one, huge, no shape, big and bold prints, just ugly in my opinion.
People wonder why I am always wearing black, it's because it goes with everything, for one, you can dress it up or down simply by adding a few pieces of jewelry and doing your hair and makeup, and because anything else in my size looks like that blouse above!
I can't stand those prints, I can't stand those loud colors and patterns, they are just awful.
The sad thing is that women who are plus sized don't really have a whole lot of options when it comes to clothes.
You either have to hunt around for all solid colors, or you end up with stuff like that, and I've seen so many women in them, and I have to look away.
Really beautiful women in really ugly clothing because there's no options for us.
We need shirts with some shape, just a bit of color, some nicer patterns and prints, not stuff like that, and we don't need yards and yards of fabric.
I went for my first walk this morning without my neck brace.
It was really difficult because I can't lift my head up, but interesting because when I was wearing the neck brace, it was like wearing a huge flashing piece of digital signage that told car drivers to give me some walking room, slow down, don't expect me to jump in the ditch to avoid being hit by a car.
We don't have sidewalks on my street, so yeah, it can be dangerous going for a walk, and this morning I regretted not wearing the neck brace and came back as quickly as possible.
Drivers did not give me any walking room, I could barely see where i was going, barely see oncoming traffic, so trying to get out of the way of jerky drivers was kind of scary.
I came back as quick as I could get here, and have decided that even though my surgeon told me I could stop wearing the neck brace all of the time, that when i go for walks, I'll wear it.
It kept drivers from trying to run me down.
It was really difficult because I can't lift my head up, but interesting because when I was wearing the neck brace, it was like wearing a huge flashing piece of digital signage that told car drivers to give me some walking room, slow down, don't expect me to jump in the ditch to avoid being hit by a car.
We don't have sidewalks on my street, so yeah, it can be dangerous going for a walk, and this morning I regretted not wearing the neck brace and came back as quickly as possible.
Drivers did not give me any walking room, I could barely see where i was going, barely see oncoming traffic, so trying to get out of the way of jerky drivers was kind of scary.
I came back as quick as I could get here, and have decided that even though my surgeon told me I could stop wearing the neck brace all of the time, that when i go for walks, I'll wear it.
It kept drivers from trying to run me down.
I cannot wait to go back to my pain doctor's office when I get the clearance from my surgeon.
Before I left for my surgery, he was telling me about how after the new year, he was going to be finished setting up an all new section at his office.
The new section is all about weight loss, dieting, diet supplements, exercise programs and routines, and that he was even working on a deal with the local YMCA to have his patients use the pool for both water therapy and as part of his new weight loss programs.
There's many reasons that people are in pain, and when you're in pain, you don't want to cause yourself more pain, so a very large majority of people with chronic pain stop exercising because it hurts, and they end up putting on a lot of weight.
That excess weight puts more stress and strain on your body, which causes you to be in even more pain.
So he's going to help his patients lose weight so they can reduce some of the pain they are in.
I'm really hoping that he's got some good stuff worked out, especially for patients like me who have skull to tailbone fusions.
Because we are fused so big, we can't exercise like normal people, our bodies don't move easily anymore, we can't bend to touch our toes, we can't bend to do sit-ups or crunches, side bends, none of that, so losing weight is extremely difficult.
I love my elliptical and can't wait to get back to using it, because it doesn't require me to bend or any of that, it's like walking, gentle stair climbing, so it's easier on my back and body.
I'm still on restriction from my surgery, but once I'm let go while waiting for the new surgery, or after the new surgery that's coming, I plan on getting right back on my elliptical.
I love that thing, I so want to work out on it now but I can't, and I know if I did, I'd end up hurting myself really bad.
Oh well, not much longer now I hope.
Before I left for my surgery, he was telling me about how after the new year, he was going to be finished setting up an all new section at his office.
The new section is all about weight loss, dieting, diet supplements, exercise programs and routines, and that he was even working on a deal with the local YMCA to have his patients use the pool for both water therapy and as part of his new weight loss programs.
There's many reasons that people are in pain, and when you're in pain, you don't want to cause yourself more pain, so a very large majority of people with chronic pain stop exercising because it hurts, and they end up putting on a lot of weight.
That excess weight puts more stress and strain on your body, which causes you to be in even more pain.
So he's going to help his patients lose weight so they can reduce some of the pain they are in.
I'm really hoping that he's got some good stuff worked out, especially for patients like me who have skull to tailbone fusions.
Because we are fused so big, we can't exercise like normal people, our bodies don't move easily anymore, we can't bend to touch our toes, we can't bend to do sit-ups or crunches, side bends, none of that, so losing weight is extremely difficult.
I love my elliptical and can't wait to get back to using it, because it doesn't require me to bend or any of that, it's like walking, gentle stair climbing, so it's easier on my back and body.
I'm still on restriction from my surgery, but once I'm let go while waiting for the new surgery, or after the new surgery that's coming, I plan on getting right back on my elliptical.
I love that thing, I so want to work out on it now but I can't, and I know if I did, I'd end up hurting myself really bad.
Oh well, not much longer now I hope.
There's a definite advantage to being sick for as long as I have been, and I am just now starting to get better.
I haven't needed to take any of my diet pills or use any of the tastants on my food for 3 weeks, because I was sicker than I've been in quite awhile, and so because of the sleeping I was doing, and not eating because it made me feel like hell to eat anything at all, but I ended up losing about 10.5 pounds.
There IS an upside to being sick people.
I had absolutely no cravings, and no desire to gorge on everything in the fridge, all because even the smell of food made me feel like crap, and I had a cold combined with the stomach issues, so coughing, sneezing, sniffling, hacking, gagging, and nausea, all made it fairly easy to drop about 10 pounds.
It was totally miserable being that sick, but I started feeling lighter by about day 8, and when I weighed myself tonight, yup, 10 pounds.
Not bad for being all sick and disgusting for so long.
I haven't needed to take any of my diet pills or use any of the tastants on my food for 3 weeks, because I was sicker than I've been in quite awhile, and so because of the sleeping I was doing, and not eating because it made me feel like hell to eat anything at all, but I ended up losing about 10.5 pounds.
There IS an upside to being sick people.
I had absolutely no cravings, and no desire to gorge on everything in the fridge, all because even the smell of food made me feel like crap, and I had a cold combined with the stomach issues, so coughing, sneezing, sniffling, hacking, gagging, and nausea, all made it fairly easy to drop about 10 pounds.
It was totally miserable being that sick, but I started feeling lighter by about day 8, and when I weighed myself tonight, yup, 10 pounds.
Not bad for being all sick and disgusting for so long.
I miss being able to go for my daily walks with Sebastian at night, or
by myself in the morning, every day.
I used to put on my stinky walking shoes, my mp3 player, and my hand weights that are actually self defense products.
In one of the weights, is some mace, and it's easily accessible with your thumb, you just flip and press, bam, the would be attacker gets shot in the face with mace.
I always carried them with me, not that anyone around here has been attacked while walking or jogging in awhile, but I always just felt better carrying them with me.
I just miss being able to go for walks, it was my way of trying to stay in shape and lose weight, but now I can't do that and it is really bumming me out.
I know that eventually I'll get there, that this will all be fixed and stuff, but right now it's totally bumming.
I used to put on my stinky walking shoes, my mp3 player, and my hand weights that are actually self defense products.
In one of the weights, is some mace, and it's easily accessible with your thumb, you just flip and press, bam, the would be attacker gets shot in the face with mace.
I always carried them with me, not that anyone around here has been attacked while walking or jogging in awhile, but I always just felt better carrying them with me.
I just miss being able to go for walks, it was my way of trying to stay in shape and lose weight, but now I can't do that and it is really bumming me out.
I know that eventually I'll get there, that this will all be fixed and stuff, but right now it's totally bumming.
In my situation, I am always trying to lose weight, always looking for the best ways to help me lose weight, control my appetite, curb my cravings for sweets and carbs, and it's not always easy.
I am currently using a product, I haven't noticed much of a change in weight or appetite suppression yet, but I'm still giving it a good try.
I am also attempting to find other people's stories of using it, product reviews, and I'm not finding hardly anything at all, but I am finding tons of other posts for orovo reviews, and tons and tons of other weight loss product reviews, but none, or hardly none, for the one I am using.
Maybe it's because it's far too new on the market or people just aren't using it or something.
I'm really hoping that I will start to see some results from it soon or I'll just stop using it.
It's pointless for me to take a product that isn't doing diddly squat to help me.
I am currently using a product, I haven't noticed much of a change in weight or appetite suppression yet, but I'm still giving it a good try.
I am also attempting to find other people's stories of using it, product reviews, and I'm not finding hardly anything at all, but I am finding tons of other posts for orovo reviews, and tons and tons of other weight loss product reviews, but none, or hardly none, for the one I am using.
Maybe it's because it's far too new on the market or people just aren't using it or something.
I'm really hoping that I will start to see some results from it soon or I'll just stop using it.
It's pointless for me to take a product that isn't doing diddly squat to help me.
I have no idea what the best fat
burners out there are, but I have been using and researching a new
weight-loss aid for the last few days that I will be posting about some
more in the upcoming days.
I was taking a weight-loss aid before my surgery that was really working, but had to stop due to the surgery, the doc didn't want me taking anything that wasn't a prescription, for fear that it would interfere with my recovery.
When I got home, I had an email from someone about a new product, and would I be interested in trying it.
As someone who can't do traditional workouts anymore, and needing to lose weight, I'm always interested in trying whatever may work for me.
So I'll be telling you a bit more about that in the next few days, how it works, and my opinions of it as I learn more about it and what it may do for me.
I was taking a weight-loss aid before my surgery that was really working, but had to stop due to the surgery, the doc didn't want me taking anything that wasn't a prescription, for fear that it would interfere with my recovery.
When I got home, I had an email from someone about a new product, and would I be interested in trying it.
As someone who can't do traditional workouts anymore, and needing to lose weight, I'm always interested in trying whatever may work for me.
So I'll be telling you a bit more about that in the next few days, how it works, and my opinions of it as I learn more about it and what it may do for me.
Mindy and her family will be moving by the end of the month, and she's pretty much the one who has to do all of the packing.
She needs to get some moving boxes and start packing everything up.
I got a couple of deliveries this morning, really nice size, sturdy boxes, so I'm going to hang onto them for her when they come over this weekend, and see if she wants them before I break them down.
I got these boxes because I have been sent some super cool stuff to do product reviews on.
I cannot wait to do these and tell you all about them!
Opening the boxes and taking all of the stuff out, was like Christmas for me.
I love opening up boxes and have that surprise moment because I have no idea what's in the boxes, but trust me, this stuff is so so cool!
She needs to get some moving boxes and start packing everything up.
I got a couple of deliveries this morning, really nice size, sturdy boxes, so I'm going to hang onto them for her when they come over this weekend, and see if she wants them before I break them down.
I got these boxes because I have been sent some super cool stuff to do product reviews on.
I cannot wait to do these and tell you all about them!
Opening the boxes and taking all of the stuff out, was like Christmas for me.
I love opening up boxes and have that surprise moment because I have no idea what's in the boxes, but trust me, this stuff is so so cool!
I know it's not Friday, but I don't think I've done a weight loss progress update in a few weeks now.
I started my doctor monitored weight-loss on July 4th, and my starting weight was 190lbs.
I started taking a product he approves and sells in his office, and he agreed to monitor my progress at every visit.
I would stick to taking 2 pills per day, eat better foods, walk, work out as much as I can, and try to increase my water intake.
I absolutely hate water, but I alternate, for every 1 can of Diet Pepsi or Diet Coke, I have 1 large glass of nearly frozen water, and I suck it down as quickly as possible.
I actually use a plastic cup that can be put in the freezer, and I really do freeze my water.
Not all the way of course, but I get it to that point of frozen where it's like a slurpee, all ice, some liquid left, slush-like, and then I just chug it down and deal with the "ice cream" headache.
But anyway, I've been doing really good sticking to my plan, I don't call it a diet because I fail at diets, so I call it my weight-loss plan, and that works for me.
My doc has kept his word, he's been monitoring me, checking my blood pressure, my weight, taking random urine tests to check iron levels and stuff, and encouraging me.
I saw my new primary care doc the other day, she weighed me, and I then went to his office, and he weighed me, and both scales matched so they must be accurate.
I am now at 169.10lbs from my start weight of 190lbs, so that's a total weight loss of 20.9lbs.
That's pretty damn good if I do say so myself.
20lbs in almost 2 months, I didn't lose tons of weight quickly which usually guarantees that you'll gain it all back plus some extra, so I'd say I'm doing alright.
I know that during my stay in the hospital even though it's only 4 days, I'll drop a few more because I have like zero appetite from all the morphine and dilaudid, and they shouldn't give me morphine this time because I nearly scratched myself to death last time.
That stuff makes you itchy, and it's such a high dose that I was passed out just clawing at my skin and ripping clumps of hair out, but anyway, I will drop probably between 2-5lbs more.
So there's my update, I'm doing good, I'm proud of myself, and now I'm going to go lay on the couch and catch a few hours of sleep.
I had insomnia again last night, and really need just a few short hours.
Later days!
I started my doctor monitored weight-loss on July 4th, and my starting weight was 190lbs.
I started taking a product he approves and sells in his office, and he agreed to monitor my progress at every visit.
I would stick to taking 2 pills per day, eat better foods, walk, work out as much as I can, and try to increase my water intake.
I absolutely hate water, but I alternate, for every 1 can of Diet Pepsi or Diet Coke, I have 1 large glass of nearly frozen water, and I suck it down as quickly as possible.
I actually use a plastic cup that can be put in the freezer, and I really do freeze my water.
Not all the way of course, but I get it to that point of frozen where it's like a slurpee, all ice, some liquid left, slush-like, and then I just chug it down and deal with the "ice cream" headache.
But anyway, I've been doing really good sticking to my plan, I don't call it a diet because I fail at diets, so I call it my weight-loss plan, and that works for me.
My doc has kept his word, he's been monitoring me, checking my blood pressure, my weight, taking random urine tests to check iron levels and stuff, and encouraging me.
I saw my new primary care doc the other day, she weighed me, and I then went to his office, and he weighed me, and both scales matched so they must be accurate.
I am now at 169.10lbs from my start weight of 190lbs, so that's a total weight loss of 20.9lbs.
That's pretty damn good if I do say so myself.
20lbs in almost 2 months, I didn't lose tons of weight quickly which usually guarantees that you'll gain it all back plus some extra, so I'd say I'm doing alright.
I know that during my stay in the hospital even though it's only 4 days, I'll drop a few more because I have like zero appetite from all the morphine and dilaudid, and they shouldn't give me morphine this time because I nearly scratched myself to death last time.
That stuff makes you itchy, and it's such a high dose that I was passed out just clawing at my skin and ripping clumps of hair out, but anyway, I will drop probably between 2-5lbs more.
So there's my update, I'm doing good, I'm proud of myself, and now I'm going to go lay on the couch and catch a few hours of sleep.
I had insomnia again last night, and really need just a few short hours.
Later days!
I was asked in an email, if the weight loss product that
I'm taking has anything to do with my insomnia, my bad sleeping problems
I've experienced over the last few days.
The short answer is no.
The long answer is that I've had sleeping issues most of my adult life now.
It has nothing to do with any foods that I'm eating, or supplements that I may be taking, or drinking a diet soda at 9pm every night, it's just my body doing what it likes to do which is go for a minimum of 3 days without sleeping, to a maximum of 13 days without sleeping more than an hour or two at night, and then when it finally decides it's tired enough, I'll sleep for one night, about 8-10 hours, and be completely back to normal again.
On Wednesday night, I didn't sleep, on Thursday night, I didn't fall asleep until almost 5am Friday morning, and last night, Friday night, I again didn't fall asleep until a little after 5am again.
I woke up this morning around 11am because someone called but I didn't make it to the phone on time before they hung up.
I've just been surfing around the internet most of the day now, reading stuff, catching up on internet news etc.
But now I have a lot of work to do so if I owe you an email or a reply to a comment, it will be coming later on tonight.
I'll probably be able to catch up on everything tonight while we watch the new movies that came in from Netflix.
I am so glad that tonight will be the end of having to watch the Rocky movies.
Rocky Balboa
came in today's mail, it's
the last one, but Sebastian really wants to see it, and it is the
last one, so just a little over an hour, 102 minutes running time, and
the Rocky movie watching will be done and over with.
*phew*
The short answer is no.
The long answer is that I've had sleeping issues most of my adult life now.
It has nothing to do with any foods that I'm eating, or supplements that I may be taking, or drinking a diet soda at 9pm every night, it's just my body doing what it likes to do which is go for a minimum of 3 days without sleeping, to a maximum of 13 days without sleeping more than an hour or two at night, and then when it finally decides it's tired enough, I'll sleep for one night, about 8-10 hours, and be completely back to normal again.
On Wednesday night, I didn't sleep, on Thursday night, I didn't fall asleep until almost 5am Friday morning, and last night, Friday night, I again didn't fall asleep until a little after 5am again.
I woke up this morning around 11am because someone called but I didn't make it to the phone on time before they hung up.
I've just been surfing around the internet most of the day now, reading stuff, catching up on internet news etc.
But now I have a lot of work to do so if I owe you an email or a reply to a comment, it will be coming later on tonight.
I'll probably be able to catch up on everything tonight while we watch the new movies that came in from Netflix.
I am so glad that tonight will be the end of having to watch the Rocky movies.
Rocky Balboa
came in today's mail, it's
the last one, but Sebastian really wants to see it, and it is the
last one, so just a little over an hour, 102 minutes running time, and
the Rocky movie watching will be done and over with.
*phew*
I was asked in an email if I'm still losing weight using the diet pills I'm taking.
I was planning on doing weekly updates every Friday, because I don't like being obsessed with the scale, but because I was asked, I'll share.
The answer is yes.
My starting weight was 190, and I'm now down to 178, so a total weight-loss of 12lbs.
Not too shabby eh?
I'm still going for daily walks, and I am using my elliptical just not using the hand poles, the skiing motion. I rest my hands on the stable bars in front of me, and that way I'm not jerking my shoulder around seeing as we still don't know what's wrong with it, and won't know until August 5th when I go see my surgeon.
I am still very pleased with these diet pills, they are still keeping my appetite in control, I'm not gorging myself on snacks at night which truth be told, was my downfall.
At night after dinner, I would eat 3-4 cookies around 7:30pm, and then around 9pm, a bowl of ice cream if the boys asked for some, or some chips and dip if one of the teens brought it out to the living room to snack on and watch a little tube.
I'm not munching on anything at night anymore, so I think that's a huge part of my weight-loss.
Also, I know this is kinda gross, but when you are constantly taking opiate pain relievers, your bowels get a little backed up.
The combination of vitamins and green tea and other stuff in them, has actually helped make the constipation go away.
Yeah, gross, I know, *laughs* but it's HUGE news when I can poop every day!
I was planning on doing weekly updates every Friday, because I don't like being obsessed with the scale, but because I was asked, I'll share.
The answer is yes.
My starting weight was 190, and I'm now down to 178, so a total weight-loss of 12lbs.
Not too shabby eh?
I'm still going for daily walks, and I am using my elliptical just not using the hand poles, the skiing motion. I rest my hands on the stable bars in front of me, and that way I'm not jerking my shoulder around seeing as we still don't know what's wrong with it, and won't know until August 5th when I go see my surgeon.
I am still very pleased with these diet pills, they are still keeping my appetite in control, I'm not gorging myself on snacks at night which truth be told, was my downfall.
At night after dinner, I would eat 3-4 cookies around 7:30pm, and then around 9pm, a bowl of ice cream if the boys asked for some, or some chips and dip if one of the teens brought it out to the living room to snack on and watch a little tube.
I'm not munching on anything at night anymore, so I think that's a huge part of my weight-loss.
Also, I know this is kinda gross, but when you are constantly taking opiate pain relievers, your bowels get a little backed up.
The combination of vitamins and green tea and other stuff in them, has actually helped make the constipation go away.
Yeah, gross, I know, *laughs* but it's HUGE news when I can poop every day!
I feel like I'm being paid for using some amazing promotional products, but I'm not getting paid for using Zylene.
I purchased a bottle at my doctor's office, and am doing this with his permission and supervision.
Today is Friday, so it's been exactly 1 week since I started taking the Zylene supplement.
I woke up, went to the bathroom, and then stepped on the scale.
I am pleasantly surprised!
I have lost 4 pounds in just 1 week!
I started at 190lbs, and I'm now at 186.
That is awesome!
I have had so much energy every single day, I wake up every morning and take my morning meds and 1 Zylene capsule, wait for my pain meds to kick in, and then I just start going going going!
I'm walking longer and faster, I'm cleaning my house constantly, and my appetite has been curbed so well I'm just amazed.
4 pounds in 1 week is outstanding for me, this is really great!
I purchased a bottle at my doctor's office, and am doing this with his permission and supervision.
Today is Friday, so it's been exactly 1 week since I started taking the Zylene supplement.
I woke up, went to the bathroom, and then stepped on the scale.
I am pleasantly surprised!
I have lost 4 pounds in just 1 week!
I started at 190lbs, and I'm now at 186.
That is awesome!
I have had so much energy every single day, I wake up every morning and take my morning meds and 1 Zylene capsule, wait for my pain meds to kick in, and then I just start going going going!
I'm walking longer and faster, I'm cleaning my house constantly, and my appetite has been curbed so well I'm just amazed.
4 pounds in 1 week is outstanding for me, this is really great!
Today is day 5 of taking the Zylene, and I have to tell you, it's working exactly as the packaging says it does.
My energy is definitely increased, and my appetite is decreased.
I am eating half of what I normally have, and I have tons of energy.
I'm not shaky or agitated, I just feel like doing stuff instead of being lethargic, even with the nasty head cold.
All the time I was laying down yesterday, all I really wanted to do was get up and do things.
Every day so far, I've gotten my dishes done, done a load of laundry every day, made the beds, picked up around the house, cleaned things I normally would have put off until the weekends.
I'd say it's going very well so far, and I know it will take time to see weight-loss results, but the way this is going, I know it's going to be a success.
My energy is definitely increased, and my appetite is decreased.
I am eating half of what I normally have, and I have tons of energy.
I'm not shaky or agitated, I just feel like doing stuff instead of being lethargic, even with the nasty head cold.
All the time I was laying down yesterday, all I really wanted to do was get up and do things.
Every day so far, I've gotten my dishes done, done a load of laundry every day, made the beds, picked up around the house, cleaned things I normally would have put off until the weekends.
I'd say it's going very well so far, and I know it will take time to see weight-loss results, but the way this is going, I know it's going to be a success.
I am not able to currently work out on my elliptical, but I can still
go for daily walks which is highly recommended.
I woke up this morning around 9am, and took my morning does of meds, and included one capsule of Zylene.
I sat here as I usually do every morning, going through emails and work stuff, catching up on other things on the net, until my body has loosened up enough to move properly.
By the time my body wasn't so stiff, the Zylene had kicked in and I had a huge burst of energy, so I took total advantage of it.
I got dressed and decided to do my daily walk right then instead of in the evening when it's usually a bit cooler out.
While it was a bit hot out, I was able to walk faster and farther than I normally do.
This is a definite bonus.
I walked for 3 miles this morning then came back and took a shower, caught up on any emails that came in while I was out, and then went and finished up last night's laundry.
I feel really good, lots of energy, so I'm going to hop off of here for a little bit and go tackle the dishes which I've been avoiding for the last 2 days, and will probably run the vac around the house and maybe even go clean the bathroom.
Seriously, I feel great, I have more energy than I've had in months, but I'm not over doing things that will cause me to be in pain later on, and I'm keeping to my regular medication schedule.
Seeing as today is day 1, I'm going to share my starting weight.
I am as of this morning, 190lbs.
According to Lacey and Faiay, it was at the 2 week mark that they noticed measurable weight loss, so I'll either post my weight again then, or if I notice any weight loss before that.
I woke up this morning around 9am, and took my morning does of meds, and included one capsule of Zylene.
I sat here as I usually do every morning, going through emails and work stuff, catching up on other things on the net, until my body has loosened up enough to move properly.
By the time my body wasn't so stiff, the Zylene had kicked in and I had a huge burst of energy, so I took total advantage of it.
I got dressed and decided to do my daily walk right then instead of in the evening when it's usually a bit cooler out.
While it was a bit hot out, I was able to walk faster and farther than I normally do.
This is a definite bonus.
I walked for 3 miles this morning then came back and took a shower, caught up on any emails that came in while I was out, and then went and finished up last night's laundry.
I feel really good, lots of energy, so I'm going to hop off of here for a little bit and go tackle the dishes which I've been avoiding for the last 2 days, and will probably run the vac around the house and maybe even go clean the bathroom.
Seriously, I feel great, I have more energy than I've had in months, but I'm not over doing things that will cause me to be in pain later on, and I'm keeping to my regular medication schedule.
Seeing as today is day 1, I'm going to share my starting weight.
I am as of this morning, 190lbs.
According to Lacey and Faiay, it was at the 2 week mark that they noticed measurable weight loss, so I'll either post my weight again then, or if I notice any weight loss before that.
I had posted on MSML about my doctor giving me the go-ahead to start taking this weight-loss product called Zylene 1.1 .
I have not only his full permission, but his full medical supervision as well.
Anyway, since I had seen Lacey shrinking away, I had been also discussing her weight loss and the product with a huge picture of the list of ingredients, in the girls private forum on the local Florida forums.
The thread is now almost 5 pages long, 20 posts per page, and one of the very first questions I asked was, 'is there anything in this list of ingredients that doesn't look safe?'
I asked that in my very first post as the thread starter, on page one.
I described Lacey's weight-loss success, and the cost of the pill, that no pill is the magic cure for fat etc, and a good discussion was going on, the girls were all excited, people started Googling it, and not a single person said a single negative thing until today.
This one girl who is much younger than I am, never married, no natural childbirths, lives an extremely healthy lifestyle of eating clean and working out all of the time.
She really does know her stuff when it comes to eating right and working out, she's great at it.
But she's also a bit of a pusher.
Let me explain.
You ever know someone who swears they smoked for like 20 years, quit cold turkey, and every single time they see you, whether or not you are smoking, if they know you smoke, they suddenly become the authoritative figure on how to quit smoking, how sick you are, how unhealthy you live your life.
Nag nag nag, pushing their oh so perfect healthy living on you when you didn't ask for their advice or opinion.
Before I left for my doc's today, this girl said there were a few ingredients that is in the Zylene that she would never put in her body.
I made the mistake of asking her what ingredient that was, and stressed that I had asked about the ingredient list in my very first post.
Big freaking mistake.
She then proceeded to talk about a single ingredient, chromium picolinate, which by the way, has been used in many different health supplements over the years, not just weight-loss drugs.
She explained how in test hamster cells, extremely large quantities of chromium caused oxidative stress and DNA damage, and the long-term effects of chromium has never been discovered or tested.
I thanked her for her answers as I always do, and had to leave for my appointment.
When I came back, posted to my blog, and then posted the news in that thread that my doc had given me the ok to go on the Zylene, and I did ask him about the chromium just so I could answer her question plus find out if it really is that dangerous.
He explained that in extremely high doses, it can be bad for some people.
I posted about him telling me to not take more than 3 per day, to start at one, move to 2 if I felt I needed it, and to never exceed the 3 per day limit.
Her next post to me was about using Fitday.com, and how it's helped her a lot, and then this question;
How is double or triple the amount of chromium you should be intaking not excessive?
I went back over my initial after doctor visit post, yup, I did explain about his orders to not take more than 3 per day, how I'd be under constant medical supervision, (I see him every 2 weeks. He will be doing weigh-ins, blood tests, blood pressure, check my diabetes etc) and how I had done my own research, asked him a ton of questions about this particular pill, got his ok, got tested by him, he will be supervising my weight loss, and she only saw the part about taking an excessive amount?!
I'll repeat what he said, "In extremely high doses, taking more than 3 per day in his opinion, can be bad for some people."
That doesn't say that 3 per day is the extremely high dose, and it's only for some people, not all, taking more than 3 per day could be bad for some people.
I'm going to be under constant medical supervision while I use this, I'll be seen every 2 weeks, be tested and monitored, I'm ok to go, I'm safe to go.
I'm not stupid about taking any weight-loss or other med for that matter.
I always look stuff up, I research even the medications that doctors have prescribed for me, I'm a well versed medical patient, who will be under medical supervision while doing this.
I really do appreciate how knowledgeable she is when it comes to healthy living and working out, she really does know her stuff, but again, I'm being treated by a doctor, under supervision, and I'm not an idiot.
I would never take anything that could potentially hurt me.
Chromium is actually ok for diabetics to take.
A totally safe amount for diabetics which I am.
I am not an insulin taking diabetic, I have been controlling it through diet for quite a few years now, with the occasional screw up of course, but if chromium, even in an old study, has been shown to take away all of the traditional signs of diabetes by taking 500mcgs TWICE a day, then 200mcgs just once per day, is perfectly safe for me to take, and again, I'm under medical care.
I just don't understand these type of people who have to be so "perfect" about everything, think they know more than a doctor who knows this medication well, and is treating the patient.
It took all I had to not come back and say something snarky and mean, I often bite my tongue in the girls forum.
There's just something about putting a whole bunch of women together, even on line, that tends to bring out the kitty claws ya know?
And she just now responded to what I did write, which was just reiteration of all of the above information for the second time in that thread.
"You are definitely being smart about it. I hope it works for you. I know that if you were in perfect health you would be working out more intensely to get the results you want."
I just really want to know what part of I can no longer do traditional core workouts due to these titanium rods in my spine, was so hard to understand?
I can go for walks, I can use my elliptical, but sit ups? Crunches? Side bends?
Um, no.
Her reply is basically, that if I were in better health, which OMG, I'm so freaking sorry I'm not, that I would not be taking this pill, that the pill is cheating.
Maybe that's true, but she knows about my back surgery, it's been discussed multiple times, it was discussed again in that thread, so why the hell even say anything to me about being in perfect health?!?!
Why?!
Why.
I have not only his full permission, but his full medical supervision as well.
Anyway, since I had seen Lacey shrinking away, I had been also discussing her weight loss and the product with a huge picture of the list of ingredients, in the girls private forum on the local Florida forums.
The thread is now almost 5 pages long, 20 posts per page, and one of the very first questions I asked was, 'is there anything in this list of ingredients that doesn't look safe?'
I asked that in my very first post as the thread starter, on page one.
I described Lacey's weight-loss success, and the cost of the pill, that no pill is the magic cure for fat etc, and a good discussion was going on, the girls were all excited, people started Googling it, and not a single person said a single negative thing until today.
This one girl who is much younger than I am, never married, no natural childbirths, lives an extremely healthy lifestyle of eating clean and working out all of the time.
She really does know her stuff when it comes to eating right and working out, she's great at it.
But she's also a bit of a pusher.
Let me explain.
You ever know someone who swears they smoked for like 20 years, quit cold turkey, and every single time they see you, whether or not you are smoking, if they know you smoke, they suddenly become the authoritative figure on how to quit smoking, how sick you are, how unhealthy you live your life.
Nag nag nag, pushing their oh so perfect healthy living on you when you didn't ask for their advice or opinion.
Before I left for my doc's today, this girl said there were a few ingredients that is in the Zylene that she would never put in her body.
I made the mistake of asking her what ingredient that was, and stressed that I had asked about the ingredient list in my very first post.
Big freaking mistake.
She then proceeded to talk about a single ingredient, chromium picolinate, which by the way, has been used in many different health supplements over the years, not just weight-loss drugs.
She explained how in test hamster cells, extremely large quantities of chromium caused oxidative stress and DNA damage, and the long-term effects of chromium has never been discovered or tested.
I thanked her for her answers as I always do, and had to leave for my appointment.
When I came back, posted to my blog, and then posted the news in that thread that my doc had given me the ok to go on the Zylene, and I did ask him about the chromium just so I could answer her question plus find out if it really is that dangerous.
He explained that in extremely high doses, it can be bad for some people.
I posted about him telling me to not take more than 3 per day, to start at one, move to 2 if I felt I needed it, and to never exceed the 3 per day limit.
Her next post to me was about using Fitday.com, and how it's helped her a lot, and then this question;
How is double or triple the amount of chromium you should be intaking not excessive?
I went back over my initial after doctor visit post, yup, I did explain about his orders to not take more than 3 per day, how I'd be under constant medical supervision, (I see him every 2 weeks. He will be doing weigh-ins, blood tests, blood pressure, check my diabetes etc) and how I had done my own research, asked him a ton of questions about this particular pill, got his ok, got tested by him, he will be supervising my weight loss, and she only saw the part about taking an excessive amount?!
I'll repeat what he said, "In extremely high doses, taking more than 3 per day in his opinion, can be bad for some people."
That doesn't say that 3 per day is the extremely high dose, and it's only for some people, not all, taking more than 3 per day could be bad for some people.
I'm going to be under constant medical supervision while I use this, I'll be seen every 2 weeks, be tested and monitored, I'm ok to go, I'm safe to go.
I'm not stupid about taking any weight-loss or other med for that matter.
I always look stuff up, I research even the medications that doctors have prescribed for me, I'm a well versed medical patient, who will be under medical supervision while doing this.
I really do appreciate how knowledgeable she is when it comes to healthy living and working out, she really does know her stuff, but again, I'm being treated by a doctor, under supervision, and I'm not an idiot.
I would never take anything that could potentially hurt me.
Chromium is actually ok for diabetics to take.
However, when chromium picolinate, which is the most bioavailable form, has been used, all of the studies have yielded positive results (in blood sugar, blood insulin and/or blood lipid [cholesterol and triglyceride] readings).
One of these studies, a 1997 study involving 180 type II diabetes patients in China, is a classic: it documented "spectacular" results in diabetes patients who took 500 mcg chromium picolinate twice daily. After four months, nearly all of the diabetes patients no longer had traditional signs of diabetes. Their blood sugar and insulin levels dropped to near normal--something that medications could not achieve.In each 1 of these pills, there are 100mcgs of chromium picolinate, so 2 would 200mcgs.
A totally safe amount for diabetics which I am.
I am not an insulin taking diabetic, I have been controlling it through diet for quite a few years now, with the occasional screw up of course, but if chromium, even in an old study, has been shown to take away all of the traditional signs of diabetes by taking 500mcgs TWICE a day, then 200mcgs just once per day, is perfectly safe for me to take, and again, I'm under medical care.
I just don't understand these type of people who have to be so "perfect" about everything, think they know more than a doctor who knows this medication well, and is treating the patient.
It took all I had to not come back and say something snarky and mean, I often bite my tongue in the girls forum.
There's just something about putting a whole bunch of women together, even on line, that tends to bring out the kitty claws ya know?
And she just now responded to what I did write, which was just reiteration of all of the above information for the second time in that thread.
"You are definitely being smart about it. I hope it works for you. I know that if you were in perfect health you would be working out more intensely to get the results you want."
I just really want to know what part of I can no longer do traditional core workouts due to these titanium rods in my spine, was so hard to understand?
I can go for walks, I can use my elliptical, but sit ups? Crunches? Side bends?
Um, no.
Her reply is basically, that if I were in better health, which OMG, I'm so freaking sorry I'm not, that I would not be taking this pill, that the pill is cheating.
Maybe that's true, but she knows about my back surgery, it's been discussed multiple times, it was discussed again in that thread, so why the hell even say anything to me about being in perfect health?!?!
Why?!
Why.
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